Had been having crazy days of work recently. The ward is constantly having to deal with high patient workload but low staff head count. MCs daily wasn't helping either.
But I have been blessed with a very loving boyfriend who makes the effort to pick me up from work via cab and accompanying me for supper, or rather late dinner.
The comfort of sitting down with him and having a meal feels great. The warmth of him holding me while walking home feels me with bliss. The thought of him being so kind to pick me from work makes me feel blessed. The conversations we have over dinner and whilst in cab makes me feel less stressed over work matters.
Guess, I am really pampered by him. Back to the position of being a spoilt girlfriend. However, the mere thought of familiarity that matches my past experience scares me. The insecurity of history repeating itself makes me uneasy. Of course my boyfriend reassures that he ain't anything like that jerk, who had left me scars and major hurt. All I can do is trust and pray that history won't repeat itself. All I can do is to hope my boyfriend would remain this sweet and pampering even when he becomes my fiance or husband in the future. All I can do is to hope that I would remain in the same bliss in future no matter what happens.
May God bless this relationship and guide my boyfriend to be a loving fiance and husband to me. May God give me the strength of trust to believe that same horrible history won't befall on me again. May God path our way to cross the obstacle of parental approval.
Amen.
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