Blessed.

Sometimes I do wonder what have I done to deserve a divorce in my life 'history page'? But at the same time, I would console myself that if I hadn't face a divorce, would I have met my current boyfriend? If my ex-husband and I didn't end the draggy marriage, would I experience the joys of this new relationship with this new guy? Doubt so.
Thus, while my ex-husband is probably enjoying his 'life after divorce' days, I am also basking in the days of being truly loved, cherished and treasured by my boyfriend. I often feel that I am back to those days of being treated like a gem by him. I need not spend my days in fear of being treated with erratic mood swings or being emotionally tied down to a guy who doesn't know how to love me and maintain a harmonious relationship.

♥ Maybe God gave me this boyfriend as a compensation for all the crap that I have been through.
♥ Maybe God allowed this guy into my life to bring me back to the basics of enjoying simple pleasures of life that money can't buy.
♥ Maybe God allowed this guy to bring me the joys of simplicity in this materialistic and practical world.
♥ Maybe God wanted to enlighten me that true love still does exist in this complicated world.
♥ Maybe God wanted me to face a divorce so that I could be freed from a torturous marriage with an egoistic guy who needed a maid or a substitute for his mother, not a wife or partner.
♥ Maybe God made me go through a divorce to bless me with a guy who is more worthy of me and my love.

Yes, I do understand that my boyfriend has lower education, lower salary income, lower family background and isn't exactly 'normal' in looks but at least, he is humble, hardworking and has a much better character than my ex-husband. My boyfriend may not be comparable to my ex-husband in the materialistic aspect of life but he has a commendable better personality,  character,  moral values and most importantly, he is able to give me the security I require in a relationship. I can trust him fully and doesn't need to worry about him taking me for granted.

My eyes had been opened to see that there isn't going to be much happiness if I had maintained my marriage with my ex-husband. Forcing myself to be in an unhappy marriage is detrimental to both my mental health and emotional health.

Of course, this new relationship is not without trials and tribulations of obstacles as well as arguments.  But through each obstacles and argument, we have learnt to treasure each other better and strengthen our relationship to a newer level of intimacy and built our foundation to stabilise the relationship.

Just hope that history will not repeat itself. Hopefully this love will last me through this lifetime. Hopefully this love will not one that I would regret in the future. Afterall, no one can predict the future for sure and only God knows what my future holds...