13 April 2012: I moved out of Sengkang, walked out of an unhappy marriage. I made the choice to respect his wishes for a divorce. I made the decision to move on with my life, away from any more negative emotions attached to being his wife. I decided that I had enough of his threat of divorce. I did what I felt was right for me and my future. We both decided that we had enough pretending to the world that we were happily in love and married.
13 April 2013: I am back in love with someone whom I think is better in accepting me for me. I am a girlfriend to someone who is able to handle conflicts maturely and is able to deal with my emotions who rationally as well as calm me down whenever I am upset over stuff. I am reminded constantly what I seek in a relationship involving love daily. I am able to speak my thoughts and behave freely, without the fear of saying or doing the wrong things. I am able to communicate my feelings with him without the fear of being called immature, irrational, mad, unreasonable, spoilt or demanding.
1 year has passed since the day I almost sunk into depression due to a failed marriage. I am still occasionally haunted of the arguement over a plate of chicken rice, escalating to end up in a divorce. I still have the memories of my deeply overwhelmed emotions so much so that I have to jet over to Melbourne to take a breather and settle my emotions before returning to face the impending divorce process.
I thank God and to those who had stayed by me, supporting me psychologically and emotionally. I am grateful for everyone who had helped me step out of the taboo of being a divorcee. Thankfully God made me strong enough to ride through this storm with the help of close friends, family members, relatives and blessing me with a boyfriend who is better than my ex-husband in personality and maturity level.
May my journey be smooth from now onwards. No more devastating relationship related issues and no more emotional roller coaster rides. Amen.
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