Frankly, I know I do/did love/loved him otherwise, I wouldn't have gone against parental advice and married him. I wouldn't have swallowed so much of my pride and 'princess' behaviour for him. I wouldn't have put down my dreams of migrating overseas for him. I wouldn't have put him at/as the top priority of my daily life. I wouldn't have him constantly in my mind. I wouldn't be always defending him and protecting his image in front my parents, relatives and friends.
If I didn't love him so much, I won't allow him the easy way out this divorce. I won't set him free so easily. I won't feel this sadness and go through frequent sleepless night or feeling so emotional at times thinking of how this marriage had failed. I won't give him this peace that he requested to forget me.
So how can he claim that he loved me more than I do when he was the one who wanted a divorce? How can he claim that he love me when he was the one who couldn't work things out properly? How can he claim that he love me when he was the one who broke my heart? How can he claim that he love me when he totally wants to cut off all ties with me and move on with his own life? How can he claim that he love me when he said hurtful words towards me and chased me out of the house? How can he claim that he love me when now he is happier than me instead of missing my presence? How can he claimed that he love me when he chose to leave me at a time when I was supposed to be concentrating on my exams and was still ill? How can he claimed that he love me when he was the one who gave up on our marriage and our 12 years of relationship?
He lied. Whatever vows and promises he gave me were all lies now... He won my heart and trust only to shatter it thoroughly.
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