Halfway Over

Time to make plans to leave Singapore once I have obtained my degree. If everything goes on smoothly, hopefully I would finish my degree course, get my official transcript by the end of 2012, get my certificate by May next year and move on to another country. Maybe I should move to UK and make good use the opportunity to walk away totally from this misery of travelling around Singapore and every place would remind me of him.

This time, I doubt anyone would be able to stop me. I have given up on the hopes of finding love again and trusting another man enough to settle down again. Too much pain, too much risk of getting myself hurt again, too much instability, too much fear to trust again and too much risk of sacrificing for him again for nothing.

Between an ox and a goat, I have no clue who will able to capture my heart again. One who is rich, yet too flamboyant for my liking and the other, sincere yet too shy + financially strapped to keep up with my current life.

My parents won't stop me now from leaving Singapore, 'cause they both know that flying away was my dream before I entered nursing. However, I allowed myself to be held back due to a guy, who ended up breaking my heart after 12 years.

Once, I have gotten my final judgement papers for divorce by November 2012, I would be lawfully and legally free from any form of commitments to the guy who hurt me so bad. Currently, with the interim judgement papers, I am still 'married' to him and 'committed' to him under the eyes of the law.

I really want to forget him and everything I had with him...