Life Goes On

I am good
I am well
I am happy
I am free
I am single
I am ready
I am fearless
I am me
I am Amelia


Reading through my past blog posts since the start of this blog has made me realize all the wide range of emotions I had to go through just to maintain my marriage, which had failed in the end. The frequency of events causing pain, sadness, anguish, anger, helplessness, exasperation and disappointment was more as compared to happy events.
As I read the post, it is true that being married to him was akin to being on a roller coaster ride: never knowing what to downfalls I would have to go through and moments of being on the top or even remaining on a flat surface was so minimal.
Perhaps, afterall, I was right. He may have had a 3rd party or perhaps the love just died, or maybe, it wasn't even love in the first place. For all know, this whole love thing was one-sided. The gullible me, who couldn't see it from the start. The blinded and fooled by love me, had failed to realize that this marriage was doomed from the start.
12 years wasted on him just like that! Wasted my youth on him. If was lucky, I would have married a better man by now and perhaps be a proud mother of two lovely kids by now. Too bad, I had to 'suffer' his incapabilities and his 'disability'. I was even a fool to cover up his 'inability' in bid to save his face. Yet, he can't treasure me as a wife. HIS LOST!
However, I am just glad that he maintained his gentleman-ness so far. He has stopped messaging me as promised and left me alone... I doubt he has changed his mobile phone though, perhaps he is allowing someone to use it as I still see him online on whatsapp. Whatever it is ain't my business nor concern now.

He lead his own life, I lead my own, never to cross paths again...

But because of him, I am emotionally scarred...