Permanent Damage & Scarring

I still do think of him at times
I still do dream of him at times
I still do feel the pain that he left behind in my heart at times
I still do wish to see him again on the streets
I still do want to know that he is doing well

But does he think and feel the same way as do? I doubt so, I would think that he had probably forgotten who am I and forgotten my existence. After-all he was the one who broke my heart and left me wounded. After-all he was one who heartlessly moved on. After-all he was the one who told me to get lost out of his life. After-all, he was the one who chose to lose contact with me...

Haiz... Guess I will never forget him and will bring all these painful memories with me to my grave... Too ashamed to admit them in person and yet can't let my husband know how hurt I have been and still am after so long.





PS: But get one thing clear, I love him no more...
My husband is the most important man in my life now besides my dad. So never ever associate him as my lover or suspect that I still do love him!