Different Perception of Love

When I was young teenager, I lived in the world believing that being loved by someone is much more important than loving someone. I perceived that I rather be the receiver rather than the giver. I had this perception that romance from the guy is much more important in proving his love for me. I believed that daily dose of saying 'I Love You', 'I Miss You', 'Don't leave me and I won't leave you', etc, was the judgement of love.

When I reached my late teenage years to early 20s, I changed my perception slightly. I begun to see peers manipulating that boyfriends and if he allows himself to be manipulated by the female, it is considered that he loves the girlfriend a lot. Of cause, I still believe in receiving love more than giving love out. It was crucial then that in order for a guy to prove his love got me, he has to treat me like a princess and dote on me dearly. Expensive gifts or expensive meals didn't really matter much to me, what was most important was that he does whatever I say as well as give in to my every single tantrums or requests.

During my mid-20s, I had the idea that love was about equally giving out and sharing of feelings. Giving me gifts became no longer a crucial measurement of love. Saying sweet-little-nothings were not quite useful in judging how much the guy loves me. I begun to judge him based on his attitude towards me, his actions when around me and his interest in my life, as as form of measurement on how much I mean to him in his life.

Now that I am reaching soon, a mundane lifestyle with him, without quarrels, peacefulness and stability is all the ask for. No need to say those mushy words, use purely your actions and behaviour is suffice to prove your love to me. Don't be an ego-maniac and I would be happy enough to believe that you love me. Don't bother buying me presents and later pick up an argument with me days later, ending the argument with a cold war. If you could humble your pride, I would be grateful enough to believe in your love for me...

Of course, I still crave for romance and physical affections but I guess, action speaks louder than words. It is useless that you say 'I love you' and yet flirt with other woman behind my back or buy me gifts and treat other women out there gently too or provide me physical affection but doing the same to other women also... In short, just let time prove your love for me and give me a stable + peaceful life and I would be extremely thankful for that.