Missing Her...

It has been more than a week since my granny has passed away... Her body was cremated on Wednesday.

Her death has somemore impacted me a lot. Started fallling sick on Thursday until today. Fever, loss of appetite, nausea, vomiting and tonsillitis.

There is an emptiness in my heart. It feels like someone has stabbed me in my heart and allowed me to bleed slowly. Although she had gave 'signals' to tell me that she is free from pain, free from any suffering and that she is happily settled now where-ever she is, I still feel the trauma of her sudden death and unexpectedly fast deterioration.

I miss her loads, going back to Jurong would never be the same. The empty room where she used to sleep would bring back much bitter-sweet memories... I know I would never really get over the sadness of losing her, but I am comforted that she has earned her rights to go back to the Lord and would be safe with Him...