Brought granny to the polyclinic for a check on her blood levels and found out that she is going into what is known as 'septic shock' soon... Her white blood cell counts are increasing as compared to the results when she was discharged last week. She is also becoming increasingly drowsy, loss much appetite and has difficulties swallowing solid food now. Her liver mass is also enlarging causing her stomach and intestines to slow down in food digestion.
I wanted to know how much time do we have left with her and was informed that CNY would be a miracle. So I went on to ask the doctor, based on his experiences and professional judgement, if we have Christmas with her at least. He told me even Christmas would be a little 'stretchy'.
Mixed emotions. Happy for granny that she wouldn't need to suffer any much longer but yet sad + un-prepared to let her go. I am so going to miss her but I can't be selfish and allow her to suffer anymore discomfort or pain due to her cancer progression.
Anyway, I know that I have done my part and best as her grand-daughter and I have contributed lots to her care these few week, ever since she was diagnosed with cancer. I have no regrets of being her grand-daughter...
One of my aunt said she has a vibe that the death would be on 18 Dec 2011. So if we follow that vibe, I am left with 8 days to treasure moments with my granny but if we follow the doctor's prediction, I am left with 14 days to be with her...
Which ever it is... May angels guide her home to Heaven, where she may experience peace + comfort in her after-life. Amen.
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