Missing Her

I miss her laughter
I miss her joyous voice
I miss her warmth
I miss her naughty jokes
I miss her playfulness
I miss her sleepiness after Diphenhydramine is infused
I miss her blurness after the chemotherapy has end
I miss her snugly body sleeping in our chemo chair

Basically I miss everything about her.

I wished I had hugged her when I said goodbye to her last week, now I would never get the chance anymore.
I wished I had held her hand longer while she was lying in the hospital bed last week, now I would never be able to hold that pair of hands anymore.
I wished I had stayed with her slightly longer that day when I went to visit her in the ward but I was too shy as she had so many relatives around her.
I wished I had played with her more, now I will never be able to even hear a laughter anymore.

She has gone to Heaven to be with God, who would shower her with all His love and give her eternal happiness for she was a good soul.