Read my post dated 8th May 2009, I realized that my views I had before stepping into my first marriage was very different from how I feel now, before stepping into my second marriage.
In 2009, I walked into the first marriage fearful that it wouldn't last due to all the emotional insecurities that my ex-husband had inflicted on me.
In 2015, I am walking into the second marriage fearful of history repeating itself. Not that I don't trust my fiance, it is more likely that I am cautious after a failed marriage.
In 2009, I walked into the first marriage with doubts that the marriage would last due to the change of my ex-husband's character shortly after ROM.
In 2015, I am walking into the second marriage knowing that my heart is safely guarded and the character of my fiance is more or less stable as well as reliable.
In 2009, I went through the wedding despite knowing that I wouldn't be happy due to pride and fear of ruining my parents' reputation of having a runaway bride as their daughter.
In 2015, I am going to marry a guy whom I know loves me much more than I do love him. I am marrying a guy who knows how to treasure me and be a good husband to me.
I am ending my post with the same sentence as I did in 2009... Who says that you will marry your dream guy? I didn't....
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