Blame Game

You made me go through a divorce that almost wrecked my life.
You gave me strength and the sound mind to face the divorce.
You showed me that I can seek peace and comfort in You. (I never did doubt that.)
But You didn't tell me that the fate of my life would be so twisted.

You snapped me out my false belief that my previous marriage was worth salvaging.
You allowed the divorce to be smooth and swift.
You cushioned the impact of the divorce, saving whatever was left of my esteem.
But You didn't award me the compensation I needed for the crap and rubbish that I had to endure from my ex-husband.

You lead me to trust that character over looks, social status and salary is more important in a committed relationship.
You let me experience true love once more.
You threw me into a few pit-holes, only to show me that I can trust a guy to handle my future.
But You didn't opened the heart and eyes of my parents to look beyond the materialistic and unimportant things.

You gave me a guy to hold my hand and walk through all the broken bridges in my life.
You gave me a guy to protect me from any possible harm.
You made me soften my heart to accept the possibility of marriage once more.
But you also gave me strong parental disapproval and non-acceptance.

You allowed me find a nice potential love-nest.
You awarded me the chance of successful application for the house.
You made me wait in anticipation for its completion.
But You didn't allow it to be mine when it was completed.

What do You exactly want from me?
You showed me hell and yet threaten to make me fall into it.
You gave me a little sweetness only to make me go throughout more bitterness.
You didn't fulfill my wishes for a smooth-sailing life from henceforth.
You forced me choose love over family.
Why can't You give me a average life like You gave others?
Why try to shake my faith in You?