Maybe, I don't exactly need the excuse or reasons anymore, 'cause I walked away a better and more natural person. I won't dare say I am a happier person without you, but at least I am happy where I am and less fearful with my behaviour/actions done or words spoken out of my mouth. I am less conscious about my non-verbal cues and don't need to thread on thin ice with my every move.
Oh, I just remember another benefit of finally plucking up my courage to leave you. That is, that I need not feel any more guilt towards you for almost choosing Andy over you. I had automatically redeemed myself from your torturous unforgiving attitude and constant pettiness to keep this grudge until today. At least now, I can life my head up high again and take this Andy's incident as a lesson well-learned.
However, I wish you could be more 'man' enough to explain your actions to me face to face, rather than dismissing our past marriage with just a 'I don't love you anymore' or 'I don't think I can tolerate and live you any longer' excuse. But, I know for you to one day be able to tell me the truth on why you gave up our 12 years of relationship would be an absolute bonus... Some sort of a miracle if it ever does happen.
As usual, I wish you well and also happiness with your current life without me.
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