Moving On

Need to leave this shift job in search of proper office hours job...
I am wide awake at night while I ought to be sleep and freaking tired in the mornings until early afternoon while I ought to be the most alert. Even my husband notices my insomnia is getting more and more intense as well as more frequent. First it was trying to sleep at night with a dose of sedative, then it progressed to a higher dose of the sedative, now it has come to the extend that even with the sedative at its maximum dose and I am still very much awake. This is not a good sign. It is hint from my body that I am starting to be resistant to the sedative and building tolerance towards the sedative. Not a good thing.
I need to regain back my normal sleeping patterns and find myself a job that would allow me to lead my life normally like most people would. I miss sleeping without the use of drugs or alcohol. I miss being able to feel what is tiredness and sleepiness naturally. I miss waking up when the sun isn't at it's brightest. I miss wake up together with my husband to have breakfast as a couple.
July, latest by August, I must leave this shift work and live normally again...