Updates On My Miserable Life

WORK:
It has been quite busy and it seems like GCC and BRC wants us to open up all the slots as they have been complaining about having difficulty finding slots for booking of the chemotherapy on the specific dates they want. However, they don't see our issue of having limited resources and also we need to attend to unforeseen circumstances of patients having allergy reactions or having trouble getting the chemotherapy drugs on time. Haiz... So sad and frustrating!
Breast doctors are threatening to bring the patients to NCC, if we don't give them the chemotherapy appointments.
Patients are also bugging us to give them the appointments with 1001 excuses on how they want finish their treatment on time, how worried they are if they miss the treatments, etc...


MARRIAGE LIFE:
Husband has been asking to when I want to return back with him to his place as his mum is asking him weekly about my absence. It just pisses me off. I am annoyed that he doesn't seem to understand how I feel about being treated as well as the difficulties I will face when I return. I am also annoyed that his mum can pretend as if nothing has happened, she acts like she has forgotten what she had said to me, accused me of hitting her son when I didn't, told me never to step into the house ever again as well as how she literally chased me out the house, telling me not to contact her son. I am irritated on how she can even go ask her brother, my husband's god-father to call my husband to settle things.
Anyway, I told my husband clearly over and over again, I wouldn't stop him from going back but for me to go back and pretend that nothing ever happened is kind of impossible. I even told me that the mere sight of his mum or her voice just simply annoys me. Yes, I am that turned off by her! She has really gotten onto my nerve this time.


FAMILY LIFE:
My cousin is getting hitched this Saturday. Kind of envious of her... Few friends around are also getting married. So envious of them! Most brides are happily preparing to walk down aisle while I am faced with so many obstacles and difficulties getting married. New things always seems to crop up to threaten to destroy my beautiful dreams of having a wonderful marriage. So sickening! Don't know what I had done to deserve such crap? Why can't I be like the rest of the brides, happily preparing for their wedding day? Why can't I be like the rest of the brides, having a smooth road down the aisle?


It seems like God has neglected me and has forsaken me for the past 2 plus years, not blessing me with a happy life and marriage... Why???