Into JB Again

Last minute today, bf's mum, bf and me decided to go into J.B for some shopping. Thankfully bf and I had brought along our passport with us as we intended to book tour for May holiday,
Shopped at Tesco, which was a mega big mall to shop!  We had a great time shpopping around and bought lots of stuff, including a pair of couple t-shirt-shirts that we chanced upon. Spent about 200 RM for the afternoon.
As we were on our way back to Singapore, we got stuck in a massive jam. It got me thinking about Jeff: how I used to dislike him travelling to JB or overseas with his friends and how I used to give him thousand and one reasons not to go. Now I am enjoying myself travelling out of Singapore nearly every 2-3 months.
This thought has made me realized that I had never hated going overseas but it is the thought of Jeff choosing to go overseas with his guy friends instead of me that made me unhappy or should I say enviously jealous. I  also realized the reason for my unhappiness stemmed from my lack of trust in him, afteral, our relationship deteriorated quite badly over the last few years, especially after our marriage.  He did nothing significant to regain or rebuild that trust.
Anyway, it is all over and I have found a travelling buddy, who doesnt mind going overseas with me every few months once. What matters most is that we are enjoying each others' company even in Singapore. Travelling together just strengthens our bond.
Tomorrow evening, we will be booking our holiday to Bail in May for my birthday. So in another two months, I would be travelling yet again.
Life is definitely good without Jeff or should I say, life is definitely great with a man that tries to build and maintain a stable relatioship.   :)

No Longer An iTunes Store Person

Wef 24/02/2013, I am no longer under the mercy of iTunes, paying my ass off for apps and music. I am now officially an Android store 'fan'.

Traded in my iPhone and bought a new phone after being persuaded by my dad to get a new phone similar to his and my mum's new phone also. Thus, I paid for my mum's new phone (her promised birthday present from me) and of course, for my own phone. I am nearly $500 bucks poorer and I have to eat 'grass' this month. Hence, all 3 of us: Dad, Mum and Me now have similar phone model, but of different colours.

Would be sourcing for my holiday destination in May and booking my tour package/F&E package tomorrow...

I am so gonna need to scrimp in March to survive until next pay day, which falls on the last week of March... God bless me. No cabs. No dining-in restaurants. No extravagrant spending.

Shopping @ Ikea

Was doing my bi-monthly shopping at Ikea and found this while shopping.
Didn't know if I should be laughing when I see a chair named after him or if I should be 'affected' in a negative way seeing his name pop out randomly. (After the divorce, seeing this name just disgusts me to the max...)
However, I came out this analogy and told my boyfriend, who was also shopping with me: if I bought the chair and sat on it, it would be akin to sitting on my ex-husband and I won't mind peeing, farting or shitting on it. I could also imagine that I am sitting on him and he is smelling my butt or even kissing my a$$.

End the shopping trip without buying the chair though. The thought of sitting on this chair would just 'dirty' my buttocks further. I rather be infested with e.coli than to be sitting on a chair named after him.

Valentine's Day

Flowers from someone, not my boyfriend though.
Well, on a brighter side, at least I did get flowers right? But from someone who isn't my boyfriend, someone who is attached, someone whom I have no mutual feelings for...

Valentines Day 2013

After more than a dozen years, I am celebrating Valentine's Day alone, celebrating it again as a single...
Can't remember when I last valentine's day without flowers being presented to me, but this year, I am flower-less as expected and I am not ranting about it.
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO THOSE OUT THERE, SINGLE OR MARRIED, IN LOVE OR OUT OF LOVE, CELEBRATING OR NOT CELEBRATING!

Back 2 Reality

Returning back to reality tomorrow, in time for Valentine's Day celebration. However, I wouldn't be celebrating it on the 14th 'cause my bf has to work his afternoon duty on that day. I also doubt he would know how to celebrate it. Anyway, if he is sincere and sweet towards me EVERYDAY, what difference does it make if I do celebrate V.day or not, it is V.day for me everyday! Heehee...

I guess I have learnt to look beyond those flowers or sweet gifts and judge a man by his practical actions.
I rather have a man who shows me that I am in his heart at all times, rather than a man showers me with gifts and flowers frequently but his heart doesn't priortise me as first priority in his life.
I rather have a man who uses his sincere action to shows me that he truly love me for who I am, accepts me for my past, present and future, rather than a man who expects me to be his subordinate and serve him endlessly due to his unforgiveness and petty mindset for my past.
I rather have a man proves to me that he appreciates me for all that I am and have done for him, rather than a man who thinks my sacrifices are mandatory, out of my free-will and 'nothing to claim credit' for.

I want a simple love life. I don't need one whereby I have to live in fear of saying the wrong thing or doing playful actions that is misinterpreted into violent behaviour.
I want a peaceful love life. I don't need one whereby I can communicate with my bf/fiance/husband without any raising of voice and still be able to problem-solve or come to a common agreement maturely.
I want a committed love life. I don't need one whereby there is lack of trust and no efforts made to affirm our commitment to each another. I don't need one whereby I am not sure what he is up to and how he is getting along with his daily life.
I just pray for peace, simplicity and a love life based on trust, mutual respect and ample communication...

CNY 2013 Away

Holiday mood...
Promised my mum to be around for CNY 2014 :)