He Will Make Me Happy Now & Forever

He'll make me happy
Each time I see him
He'll be the reason
My heart can sing
He'll stand beside me
And I'll have everything

Now and forever
Until forever
Their love will grow

He'll make her happy
That's all she needs to know
They'll be so happy

I only know
He'll make me happy
That's all I need...to...know...

5 Months More

Bridal Studio: Found
Bridal Gown: Selected
Evening Gown: Selected
ROM Gown: Selected & Reserved
Wedding Shoes: Bought
Wedding Rings: Bought & Will Be Ready By Jan 2015
Actual Day Photographer: Hired
Actual Day Make-Up Artist: Hired
Actual Day Floral Bouquet: Picked design
ROM/Wedding Invitation Cards: Designed, Printed, Received & Will Be Mailed Out In Jan 2015
ROM/Wedding Venue: Confirmed
ROM/Wedding Buffet: Ordered
ROM Justice of Peace: Confirmed Presence & Will Remind Upon Successful E-filing In Jan 2015
Wedding Favors: Ordered and Will Be Delivered in Dec 2014



So it looks like I am more or less ready for the ROM wedding. Now time to relax and start planning for our new house furnishings and decoration for the wedding. Parents are informed and the meeting for the both sides would take place in March 2015. Both fathers would be the documented witnesses for the ROM certification.

Many of my close friends and relatives who know us well will be invited. 

From the feedback I get, I am confident that I had made a good choice this time round. A guy who loves me and cherishes me more than anything. A guy who can accept my flaws and my history of going through a failed marriage before. A guy who understands me, my temper and personality. A guy who can tame my ruffled feathers whenever I turn into some bitchy or princess fit tantrums. A guy who is willing to build a home with me and start his future with me. What more can I ask for? Life isn't perfect and never will be. It is up to make imperfections near to perfection.

I should be prepared for this next chapter in my life... 5 months countdown. 

Self Designed Wedding Card

Spent half the day doing up our wedding card and designing it all by myself. It was a tedious process for me as I am not an artistic person by nature. I managed to design two separate cards, one for the his friends and relatives, and one for my friends and relatives.

Those close friends and relatives would be receiving my set of invitation cards by March 2015. Although it isn't going to be a grand event, I hope those invited will turn up to witness this event: my second hope of happiness and marital bliss.

PS to that 'ex-husband' of mine: just in case you are still reading my blog, I am glad to inform you that I have taken your challenge to find a guy nothing like you. In fact he is far better in character and of a higher maturity level than you. I am glad that after our journey ended, you and I have never crossed paths again. Don't get too pissed at me for managing to find someone else to live the rest of my life with. Don't you dare blame me for surviving the hell that you put me through. I definitely deserve a better than you...

Bride-zilla Again

Never ever imagined that I would allow this period to happen to me again. I swear. Not after all that has happened to me, the failed marriage that ended in divorce and obstacles that was laid in front of me. I never know that I had the guts to allow myself to commit into a pending marriage again and even bought a house to be built into a home with him.

Yes, although I agreed to the proposal last year, but I seriously, had no intention to marry so soon and even buy a house with him as a co-owner.

For the past few weeks, I (or should I say, we) been busy with finding our wedding bands, bridal studio package, ideal bridal gown, settling paper work for the pending house and sourcing for best deals for our furniture. For the next few weeks to months, we would be busy planning and preparing for both the new house and ROM wedding.

This time round, it is double the stress, double the joyous occasion, double the planning, double the fuss and double the need for perfection. 2nd time round I became a bride-zilla... Although, I am supposed to be slightly more 'experienced' in handling a wedding, I am still freaking out as if it is my first time.

I am glad that I have told my parents the news and as expected, my mum didn't take it too well but my dad is satisfied that I have found a ideal home and, the guy who would take responsibilities and build a home with his princess. From what I gather, my dad is convinced that my fiance (future husband) will be able to give me the basic happiness that I need in a marriage as well as hold the roles and responsibilities of being a husband. He knows that I have found a better man than my ex-husband.

May I be lucky this second time round in marriage. Amen.

A Step Closer 2 DesAme Future

A picture speaks a thousand words... Those privileged ones were already informed of the actual date and tentative arrangements.

2nd Step For DesAme Future

Spend the whole of last week in preparation for this huge and major commitment. Even as I type, my feet is aching from all the hectic running around yesterday, but I am glad the all tiring process is over and hopefully worth while. On Wednesday (29/10) then I know if all is worth the effort and once successful, more plannings would be needed and the start of the major responsibility would be in place.

However, soon would come the hard part of breaking the news to my parents, especially my mum, who is still pretty stubborn with her mindset that Desmond ain't her ideal SIL material and can't accept him into the family still.

Of course, Desmond's family is also reluctant to let him go as he is the eldest son and they have been sheltering him from the world as well as super protective of him. Now, I like the person helping him gain full independence from his parents. Actually, I could see why his parents are super worried about the decision that we are about to make to embark on this new journey of life-long commitment soon. In fact, I should be more worried based on my past haunting experience and history of experiencing the downfalls of having a ex-husband, who totally doesn't act like a mature adult and doesn't take responsibilities as a husband, financially, physically and emotionally.

Oh well, let's just see what Wednesday brings...

Letter To Granny

Ah Ma,
Since you been gone, lots of things has happened in the family and some changes in my life for the better has also occurred. I know whatever that has happened to me is probably part of your works and I thank you for it. I thank you for helping me break free from the silent misery that I was going through and also leading me to my brand new life as a much happier and stronger person.
I have attained my degree, just like you have always wanted me to achieve. I also have found someone new since then and is about to embark on a new journey with him soon. I have brought him to 'meet' you a few times and hope for your blessings up in heaven. May this be the man that you have chosen for me to walk with me down the path of my remaining life.
There won't be any big celebrations for our union as I know mummy doesn't agree on him due to his financial background, looks and education background.
Although, haven't been around physically to witness all the changes and trials that I have been put through, but I am pretty sure you were there with me, in spirit, cheering me on and accompanying me through my joys and pains. I hope you continue staying by my side until it is time for your reincarnation or until I see you again in Heaven.
I do miss your presence and that is also the partially why I have been skipping CNY  celebrations with the family. It is never gonna be the same without you. The feel isn't there for me. No more reunions with you over steamboat on CNY eve, no more visitations with vegetarian lunch on CNY day prepared by you, no more seeing you play with the other grandchildren and chatting with us.
I am sure Fiona and Cheryl also feels the same way as I do. The three of us were brought up by you, from young being at your place before or after school and during school holidays. Thus, we missed you presence the most.
I have not stepped back to Jurong since your demise as I know that I would feel empty and may start crying again due to all the memories of you.
I hope you are at a better place, free from all the pain and sufferings and leading a good afterlife.
Till we meet again... In the meantime, please continue to bless the family and all your grandchildren, including future great grandchildren with health and happiness.
Thank you.