Bride-zilla Again

Never ever imagined that I would allow this period to happen to me again. I swear. Not after all that has happened to me, the failed marriage that ended in divorce and obstacles that was laid in front of me. I never know that I had the guts to allow myself to commit into a pending marriage again and even bought a house to be built into a home with him.

Yes, although I agreed to the proposal last year, but I seriously, had no intention to marry so soon and even buy a house with him as a co-owner.

For the past few weeks, I (or should I say, we) been busy with finding our wedding bands, bridal studio package, ideal bridal gown, settling paper work for the pending house and sourcing for best deals for our furniture. For the next few weeks to months, we would be busy planning and preparing for both the new house and ROM wedding.

This time round, it is double the stress, double the joyous occasion, double the planning, double the fuss and double the need for perfection. 2nd time round I became a bride-zilla... Although, I am supposed to be slightly more 'experienced' in handling a wedding, I am still freaking out as if it is my first time.

I am glad that I have told my parents the news and as expected, my mum didn't take it too well but my dad is satisfied that I have found a ideal home and, the guy who would take responsibilities and build a home with his princess. From what I gather, my dad is convinced that my fiance (future husband) will be able to give me the basic happiness that I need in a marriage as well as hold the roles and responsibilities of being a husband. He knows that I have found a better man than my ex-husband.

May I be lucky this second time round in marriage. Amen.