3 more months before my annual leave slot in May is due. Currently planning where to head to celebrate my 30th birthday. Came out with a list while browsing an in-flight magazine but still planning on where I should go as I wanna book my trip latest by end of CNY.
List of planned destinations:
- Adelaide
- Sydney
- Perth
- Melbourne (celebrate with my god-sis)
- Cebu
- Krabi
- Boracay
- Baguio
- Phuket
- Pattaya
- Langkawi
- Kuching
- Sarawak
Not sure if my boyfriend will be travelling with me as he may be unable to get his leave due to lack of manpower... Well, we will see but, with or without him, I am still flying off during my birthday. Thanks to itchy backside and my new found freed to fly anywhere I want, anytime I want, without worrying about anyone being unhappy coz he/she has fear of travelling, especially by plane.
About Me
- Mint + Bitter Chocolate = Heaven
- Just the blunt and honest me. Just someone who needs to air her inner most feelings and thoughts. Just a female who suffers from a crazy life journey, with lots of ups and down in her life. Just another moronic human being who wishes for peace and serenity in life one day.
Friday, February 1, 2013
Saturday, January 26, 2013
Guilty Conscience
Hello there! Not sure if you are still following my blog, but it has been nearly 10 months we both walked out of each others' life.
Today, I went back to your area to cast my votes for the 'By-Election' and thankfully, I didn't get to meet your family members nor you. Wouldn't know how to react if I meet anyone of them or you. Anyway, I guess it would be last time stepping into that area for elections.
All the best! May the best man win the elections tonight for that district after Micheal Palmer resigned.
Today, I went back to your area to cast my votes for the 'By-Election' and thankfully, I didn't get to meet your family members nor you. Wouldn't know how to react if I meet anyone of them or you. Anyway, I guess it would be last time stepping into that area for elections.
All the best! May the best man win the elections tonight for that district after Micheal Palmer resigned.
Monday, January 21, 2013
Prik Thai - Ruk Sam Sao [Audio]
Artist: Prik Thai
Title: Ruk Sam Sao
English Title: Love Triangle
Album: After Six
Year: 2008
Ever since that day, the day that you left me
I had accept the truth, even though it wasn't easy
Ever since that day, I ran into him
He continuously wiped away my tears
Waiting to take care of me, never being distant
Don't cry, he said to me don't cry
I'll always have him by my side
And then the two of us dated
And things were going well
Why did you come back...at this moment?
One person is undeniably good to me
How could I just drop him?
The other one left me once before
But my love has never faded for him
I'm not a princess from anywhere
I'll have to choose one side
This love triangle must end
From this day forth, I must be strong
Between the one who loves me
Or the love before him
Don't cry, he said to me don't cry
I'll always have him by my side
And then the two of us dated
And things were going well
Why did you come back...at this moment?
One person is undeniably good to me
How could i just drop him?
The other left me once before
But my love has never faded for him
I'm not a princess from anywhere
I'll have to choose one side
This love triangle must end
PS: Randomly found from YouTube, which brings back memories... The only difference is that I managed to get the english translation to the lyrics, which makes it more meaningful and it helps me to decipher and break down what you were trying to tell me when you asked me to listen to this song and 'Tur Yang' by Potato (as shown in my previous post) 2 years ago.
Saturday, January 12, 2013
3-0 in 5mths...
While waiting for the bus today, this thought dawned upon me: Hitting that 3-0 in 5 months and what have I achieved?
Firstly, I proudly declare that I have gotten my Diploma, Advanced Diploma and Degree in Nursing! Although I know most of my peers have already achieved a Masters or PhD, but I am contented to have achieved up to a degree standard. I had never imagined myself to study up to a degree as I knew from young that I wasn't 'studying material', I never did we'll in school and my grades were always borderline pass. Now, I that have achieved my degree, I feel that it is suffice for me at this current stage of my life.
Secondly, I am proud to have met and achieved my childhood ambition to be a nurse. That was the only goal that I used to motivate myself to studying those boring subjects such as Mathematics, Chemistry, Physics, History, Geography and Social Studies since Primary to Secondary school. I remembered how badly I cried when I received my 'O' level results thinking I wasn't able to enter Nursing as I had failed my science subject but when a friend told me I could still get into Nursing with my F&N grade, I immediately stopped crying. That was how desperate I was to enter in Nursing school. :)
Thirdly, I am glad that for the past nearly 30 years of my life, I am strong enough to face any form of defeat in my face and get up on my two feet to fight all those depressive events. Some of these events scarred me and some of these events just made me stronger as a person. Some of these events opened my eyes to the cruelty of this world and some of these events made me realise that trusting the wrong person would lead to your downfall. Some of these events made me a little more skeptical about humans and some of these events affected the way I treat mankind. However, despite all these downfalls, I am still me: narcissistic and yet able to forgive those who has hurt me in the past.
Fourthly, (something that I am proud nor glad to say but I still must add them to my list of 'achievements') I have been through numerous of BGR, most short lasting and some lasting slightly longer than I expected. I have been loved and I have loved. I have experienced what it felt like to walk down the aisle and I have experienced what it is like to end a marriage after trying my best to mend whatever broken pieces that he destroyed and eventually drove me to my ends wits. The only pity to these all, I don't even know the truth to reason of divorce just the same story to my first relationship, broke off without a proper explanation on why he chose to run away from the relationship although he claimed that e still loved me.
My last achievement was to maintain my sanity through all these shit and crap that life throws at me. Thank God for His strength. Thank God for His grace to helping me keep my sanity intact. Thank God for allowing those close friends and family members to be there for me when I needed them for support and understanding. Thank God for protecting my life by ensuring that I had sufficient time to heal before allowing another blow to hit me. Thank God for understanding that although I don't go to church or attend any masses or whatever Christian activities, He still knows that do worship Him and believe in Him.
After 3-0, I just hope to achieve a peaceful life. Perhaps deliver a child and know what it is like to experience pregnancy and labor before the 3-5. Perhaps enjoy the ups and downs of motherhood. Perhaps continue to keep my sanity until one day when dementia hits me. Perhaps understand my needs better than wants in life and prioritise my life accordingly.
Firstly, I proudly declare that I have gotten my Diploma, Advanced Diploma and Degree in Nursing! Although I know most of my peers have already achieved a Masters or PhD, but I am contented to have achieved up to a degree standard. I had never imagined myself to study up to a degree as I knew from young that I wasn't 'studying material', I never did we'll in school and my grades were always borderline pass. Now, I that have achieved my degree, I feel that it is suffice for me at this current stage of my life.
Secondly, I am proud to have met and achieved my childhood ambition to be a nurse. That was the only goal that I used to motivate myself to studying those boring subjects such as Mathematics, Chemistry, Physics, History, Geography and Social Studies since Primary to Secondary school. I remembered how badly I cried when I received my 'O' level results thinking I wasn't able to enter Nursing as I had failed my science subject but when a friend told me I could still get into Nursing with my F&N grade, I immediately stopped crying. That was how desperate I was to enter in Nursing school. :)
Thirdly, I am glad that for the past nearly 30 years of my life, I am strong enough to face any form of defeat in my face and get up on my two feet to fight all those depressive events. Some of these events scarred me and some of these events just made me stronger as a person. Some of these events opened my eyes to the cruelty of this world and some of these events made me realise that trusting the wrong person would lead to your downfall. Some of these events made me a little more skeptical about humans and some of these events affected the way I treat mankind. However, despite all these downfalls, I am still me: narcissistic and yet able to forgive those who has hurt me in the past.
Fourthly, (something that I am proud nor glad to say but I still must add them to my list of 'achievements') I have been through numerous of BGR, most short lasting and some lasting slightly longer than I expected. I have been loved and I have loved. I have experienced what it felt like to walk down the aisle and I have experienced what it is like to end a marriage after trying my best to mend whatever broken pieces that he destroyed and eventually drove me to my ends wits. The only pity to these all, I don't even know the truth to reason of divorce just the same story to my first relationship, broke off without a proper explanation on why he chose to run away from the relationship although he claimed that e still loved me.
My last achievement was to maintain my sanity through all these shit and crap that life throws at me. Thank God for His strength. Thank God for His grace to helping me keep my sanity intact. Thank God for allowing those close friends and family members to be there for me when I needed them for support and understanding. Thank God for protecting my life by ensuring that I had sufficient time to heal before allowing another blow to hit me. Thank God for understanding that although I don't go to church or attend any masses or whatever Christian activities, He still knows that do worship Him and believe in Him.
After 3-0, I just hope to achieve a peaceful life. Perhaps deliver a child and know what it is like to experience pregnancy and labor before the 3-5. Perhaps enjoy the ups and downs of motherhood. Perhaps continue to keep my sanity until one day when dementia hits me. Perhaps understand my needs better than wants in life and prioritise my life accordingly.
Thursday, January 10, 2013
One Step Closer
One module down, one more module to go!
One step closer to achieving my degree after my final results are released in February.
One step closer to meeting my goal of graduating in 2013.
How time flies? One year ago, I was struggling, wondering if I would make it through my degree course. Now, here I am praying for a final pass in my last module. I did think that I was doomed to fail in May last year due to some personal matters that almost 'killed' me but I passed that stage and moved on to now my final leap...
Keeping my fingers crossed for the final pass in that module. No need for retaking or re-submitting of assignments. I am over that phrase of doing assignments already.
Once I am done with my degree, I wanna take a breather and perhaps permanent pause for studying...
Haiz!
One step closer to achieving my degree after my final results are released in February.
One step closer to meeting my goal of graduating in 2013.
How time flies? One year ago, I was struggling, wondering if I would make it through my degree course. Now, here I am praying for a final pass in my last module. I did think that I was doomed to fail in May last year due to some personal matters that almost 'killed' me but I passed that stage and moved on to now my final leap...
Keeping my fingers crossed for the final pass in that module. No need for retaking or re-submitting of assignments. I am over that phrase of doing assignments already.
Once I am done with my degree, I wanna take a breather and perhaps permanent pause for studying...
Haiz!
Saturday, January 5, 2013
1st Post of 2013
I'm back from my short holiday trip. Brand new year has come and that means a brand new start at life to make things right this time.
As I watched the celebratory fireworks display during my trip, it dawned upon me that life could be more beautiful if I have just let matters go earlier, rather than holding on to something that was never meant to be mine. It was folly on my part to believe that things would work out fine if I had persevered on. All the wrong concepts that had prevented me from leaving earlier. But at least I knew that I tried my best to work things out and it wasn't entirely my fault that things just couldn't work out the way it should have.
Back to work later today...
Wishing myself that 2013 will bring forth more joy and bliss as compared to 2013 and may 2013 spare me from any further agony or traumatic events.
PS: I maybe expecting some good news in 2013 =)
As I watched the celebratory fireworks display during my trip, it dawned upon me that life could be more beautiful if I have just let matters go earlier, rather than holding on to something that was never meant to be mine. It was folly on my part to believe that things would work out fine if I had persevered on. All the wrong concepts that had prevented me from leaving earlier. But at least I knew that I tried my best to work things out and it wasn't entirely my fault that things just couldn't work out the way it should have.
Back to work later today...
Wishing myself that 2013 will bring forth more joy and bliss as compared to 2013 and may 2013 spare me from any further agony or traumatic events.
PS: I maybe expecting some good news in 2013 =)
Sunday, December 30, 2012
Potato: Tur Yang (Do You Still)
I chanced upon this song while shopping along Bugis street and it reminded me of you. I remember you once asked me to listen to this song (months ago, before we ended this marriage) and asked me for my opinion. I told you that I didn't like it and couldn't appreciate it.
Now, months later, I went home to find out more about this song and realized that this song lyrics is quite meaningful, especially now that we have parted ways...
Anyway, here's the song dedicated back to you to end 2012. I shan't and don't wish to read too much into this song + its lyrics and jump to baseless conclusion to why you had asked me to listen to this song in the first place. I shall presume that you just wanted me to appreciate the song on the same level as you did and not to ask me to decipher the lyrics word for word...
By the way, I know you still do read my blog and I don't mind you doing so. Afterall, this blog is public and if I dare to put it up, I would dare to publicise it for ANYONE and EVERYONE to read. So, here's my sincere wishes + blessings for you to also start 2013 anew and hope 2013 would be a better year for you as well as your future endeavours...
ฉัน ยัง เป็น คน ที่รัก เธอ หมดใจ
chan yang bpen kon tee rak ter mot jai
I’m still the man who loves you wholeheartedly
ฉัน ยัง ได้แต่ คิดถึง เธอ เรื่อยไป
chan yang dai dtae kit teung ter reuay bpai
I still can only think of you constantly
ฉัน ยัง ดู รูปถ่าย ที่ เรา ชิดใกล้ อยู่ ทุกวัน
chan yang doo roop taai tee rao chit glai yoo tuk wan
I still look at our pictures of when we were close everyday
ฉัน ยัง รอคอย ให้ เธอ นั้น กลับมา
chan yang ror koi hai ter nan glap maa
I’m still waiting for you to come back
ฉัน ยัง กา ปฏิทิน ทุก คืนวัน
chan yang gaa bpa-dti-tin tuk keun-wan
I still cross off each day on the calendar
เพราะ คำ เดียว ระยะทาง ที่มา ขวางกั้น เรา ไว้
pror kam dieow ra-ya taang tee maa kwaang gan rao wai
Because one word stood in our way and kept us apart
* ได้แต่ คิด แล้วก็ สงสัย อยู่ ตรงนั้น เธอ เป็นอย่างไร ก็ ไม่รู้
* dai dtae kit laew gor song-sai yoo dtrong nan ter bpen yaang rai gor mai roo
I can only think and then wonder. I have no idea how you’re doing over there
ฝาก เพลง นี้ ให้ ไป ถาม เธอ ดู อยากจะ รู้ ใน ความเป็นไป
faak playng nee hai bpai taam ter doo yaak ja roo nai kwaam bpen bpai
I’ll send over this song to ask you. I want to know what’s going on.
** เธอ ยัง คิดถึง ฉัน ทุก นาที รึเปล่า
** ter yang kit teung chan tuk naa-tee reu bplao
Do you still think of me every single minute?
เธอ ยัง จำ เรื่อง เรา ใน วัน วาน ได้ หรือไม่
ter yang jam reuang rao nai wan waan dai reu mai
Do you still recall yesterday’s memories?
เธอ ยัง มี ใจ ให้ ฉัน คนเดียว ยัง รอ ฉัน แค่ คนเดียว
ter yang mee jai hai chan kon dieow yang ror chan kae kon dieow
Are you still faithful to only me? Still waiting for only me?
เธอ ยังคง เป็น เหมือนเดิม อยู่ ใช่ไหม
ter yang kong bpen meuan derm yoo chai mai
You’re still the same person as before, right?
ช่วย บอก ให้รู้ ที
chuay bok hai roo tee
Please let me know
ฉัน กลัว ใคร ทำให้ เธอ นั้น เปลี่ยนไป
chan glua krai tam hai ter nan bplian bpai
I’m afraid someone is going to change you
ฉัน กลัว สิ่ง ที่ ไม่ แน่นอน มากมาย
chan glua sing tee mai nae non maak maai
I’m afraid of so many uncertain things
ฉัน กลัว คำว่า เสียใจ เธอ รอ ฉัน ได้ ใช่ไหม
chan glua kam waa sia jai ter ror chan dai chai mai
I’m afraid of regret. You can wait for me, right?
เธอ ยัง คิดถึง ฉัน ทุกเวลา อยู่ หรือเปล่า
ter yang kit teung chan tuk way-laa yoo reu bplao
Do you still think of me all the time?
เธอ ยัง ดู รูป เรา ใบ เดิม เดิม อยู่ หรือไม่
ter yang doo roop rao bai derm derm yoo reu mai
Do you still look at our old photographs?
เธอ ยัง มี ใจ ให้ ฉัน คนเดียว ยัง รอ ฉัน แค่ คนเดียว
ter yang mee jai hai chan kon dieow yang ror chan kae kon dieow
Are you still faithful to only me? Still waiting for only me?
เธอ ยัง รัก กัน เหมือนเดิม อยู่ ใช่ไหม ช่วย บอก ให้รู้ ที
ter yang rak gan meuan derm yoo chai mai chuay bok hai roo tee
You still love me like you did before, right? Please let me know.
เธอ ยัง คิดถึง ฉัน ทุกเวลา อยู่ หรือเปล่า
ter yang kit teung chan tuk way-laa yoo reu bplao
Do you still think of me all the time?
เธอ ยัง ดู รูป เรา ใบ เดิม เดิม อยู่ หรือไม่
ter yang doo roop rao bai derm derm yoo reu mai
Do you still look at our old photographs?
เธอ ยัง มี ใจ ให้ ฉัน คนเดียว ยัง รอ ฉัน แค่ คนเดียว
ter yang mee jai hai chan kon dieow yang ror chan kae kon dieow
Are you still faithful to only me? Still waiting for only me?
เธอ ยัง รัก กัน เหมือนเดิม อยู่ ใช่ไหม ช่วย บอก ให้รู้ ที
ter yang rak gan meuan derm yoo chai mai chuay bok hai roo tee
You still love me like you did before, right? Please let me know.
Now, months later, I went home to find out more about this song and realized that this song lyrics is quite meaningful, especially now that we have parted ways...
Anyway, here's the song dedicated back to you to end 2012. I shan't and don't wish to read too much into this song + its lyrics and jump to baseless conclusion to why you had asked me to listen to this song in the first place. I shall presume that you just wanted me to appreciate the song on the same level as you did and not to ask me to decipher the lyrics word for word...
By the way, I know you still do read my blog and I don't mind you doing so. Afterall, this blog is public and if I dare to put it up, I would dare to publicise it for ANYONE and EVERYONE to read. So, here's my sincere wishes + blessings for you to also start 2013 anew and hope 2013 would be a better year for you as well as your future endeavours...
ฉัน ยัง เป็น คน ที่รัก เธอ หมดใจ
chan yang bpen kon tee rak ter mot jai
I’m still the man who loves you wholeheartedly
ฉัน ยัง ได้แต่ คิดถึง เธอ เรื่อยไป
chan yang dai dtae kit teung ter reuay bpai
I still can only think of you constantly
ฉัน ยัง ดู รูปถ่าย ที่ เรา ชิดใกล้ อยู่ ทุกวัน
chan yang doo roop taai tee rao chit glai yoo tuk wan
I still look at our pictures of when we were close everyday
ฉัน ยัง รอคอย ให้ เธอ นั้น กลับมา
chan yang ror koi hai ter nan glap maa
I’m still waiting for you to come back
ฉัน ยัง กา ปฏิทิน ทุก คืนวัน
chan yang gaa bpa-dti-tin tuk keun-wan
I still cross off each day on the calendar
เพราะ คำ เดียว ระยะทาง ที่มา ขวางกั้น เรา ไว้
pror kam dieow ra-ya taang tee maa kwaang gan rao wai
Because one word stood in our way and kept us apart
* ได้แต่ คิด แล้วก็ สงสัย อยู่ ตรงนั้น เธอ เป็นอย่างไร ก็ ไม่รู้
* dai dtae kit laew gor song-sai yoo dtrong nan ter bpen yaang rai gor mai roo
I can only think and then wonder. I have no idea how you’re doing over there
ฝาก เพลง นี้ ให้ ไป ถาม เธอ ดู อยากจะ รู้ ใน ความเป็นไป
faak playng nee hai bpai taam ter doo yaak ja roo nai kwaam bpen bpai
I’ll send over this song to ask you. I want to know what’s going on.
** เธอ ยัง คิดถึง ฉัน ทุก นาที รึเปล่า
** ter yang kit teung chan tuk naa-tee reu bplao
Do you still think of me every single minute?
เธอ ยัง จำ เรื่อง เรา ใน วัน วาน ได้ หรือไม่
ter yang jam reuang rao nai wan waan dai reu mai
Do you still recall yesterday’s memories?
เธอ ยัง มี ใจ ให้ ฉัน คนเดียว ยัง รอ ฉัน แค่ คนเดียว
ter yang mee jai hai chan kon dieow yang ror chan kae kon dieow
Are you still faithful to only me? Still waiting for only me?
เธอ ยังคง เป็น เหมือนเดิม อยู่ ใช่ไหม
ter yang kong bpen meuan derm yoo chai mai
You’re still the same person as before, right?
ช่วย บอก ให้รู้ ที
chuay bok hai roo tee
Please let me know
ฉัน กลัว ใคร ทำให้ เธอ นั้น เปลี่ยนไป
chan glua krai tam hai ter nan bplian bpai
I’m afraid someone is going to change you
ฉัน กลัว สิ่ง ที่ ไม่ แน่นอน มากมาย
chan glua sing tee mai nae non maak maai
I’m afraid of so many uncertain things
ฉัน กลัว คำว่า เสียใจ เธอ รอ ฉัน ได้ ใช่ไหม
chan glua kam waa sia jai ter ror chan dai chai mai
I’m afraid of regret. You can wait for me, right?
เธอ ยัง คิดถึง ฉัน ทุกเวลา อยู่ หรือเปล่า
ter yang kit teung chan tuk way-laa yoo reu bplao
Do you still think of me all the time?
เธอ ยัง ดู รูป เรา ใบ เดิม เดิม อยู่ หรือไม่
ter yang doo roop rao bai derm derm yoo reu mai
Do you still look at our old photographs?
เธอ ยัง มี ใจ ให้ ฉัน คนเดียว ยัง รอ ฉัน แค่ คนเดียว
ter yang mee jai hai chan kon dieow yang ror chan kae kon dieow
Are you still faithful to only me? Still waiting for only me?
เธอ ยัง รัก กัน เหมือนเดิม อยู่ ใช่ไหม ช่วย บอก ให้รู้ ที
ter yang rak gan meuan derm yoo chai mai chuay bok hai roo tee
You still love me like you did before, right? Please let me know.
เธอ ยัง คิดถึง ฉัน ทุกเวลา อยู่ หรือเปล่า
ter yang kit teung chan tuk way-laa yoo reu bplao
Do you still think of me all the time?
เธอ ยัง ดู รูป เรา ใบ เดิม เดิม อยู่ หรือไม่
ter yang doo roop rao bai derm derm yoo reu mai
Do you still look at our old photographs?
เธอ ยัง มี ใจ ให้ ฉัน คนเดียว ยัง รอ ฉัน แค่ คนเดียว
ter yang mee jai hai chan kon dieow yang ror chan kae kon dieow
Are you still faithful to only me? Still waiting for only me?
เธอ ยัง รัก กัน เหมือนเดิม อยู่ ใช่ไหม ช่วย บอก ให้รู้ ที
ter yang rak gan meuan derm yoo chai mai chuay bok hai roo tee
You still love me like you did before, right? Please let me know.
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