5 Days To Love Nest

Can't believe that this day is coming up this weekend! After much hassles and hiccups, we are finally moving into our Love-Nest. The start of new life as a couple begins, the beginning of seeing each other first thing in the morning and last thing at night before bedtime. All the pet peeves and bad habits would be portrayed full blown.

Painter coming in on 6th March. Moving of his things on 7th March and mine on 8th March. Furnitures and electrical appliances delivery on 9th March. Seems like a busy few weeks until ROM day to 'prepare' the house and ourselves for the big day on 28th April.

All seems to be running smoothly but I am not as optimistic as I want to be, as I know that God always have some hurdle for me. He never allows me to have an easy life with our bliss for too long. I am used to being struck with hiccups and obstacles to getting to my destination of happiness. Bad things always happen when I am in the midst of happiness. That process has been part of my life since 2007. Obstacles and worries more than bliss and happiness...

I know my current guy will be a much better guy/partner/fiance/husband than my ex-husband. I am confident that my life would be better and happier as compared to when I was married to my ex-husband. I may not have surplus financially and didn't marry into a rich family but I know that I would be more stable in the non-tangible aspects of my life. However, I would be treated better emotionally, psychologically and physically. I would be able to be my natural self around him and with transparency in our thoughts. No more threading on thin ice. No more fears of saying the wrong words leading to endless arguments.  No more fears of being much less than top priority. No more nonsensical emotional roller coaster ride. No more mental trusting issues. No more hidden secrets to hinder a marriage from progressing into the future between the two of us.

I will be happy. I will be a better wife. I will lead a more fulfilled life. Small home but full of love and warmth from him. Simple living but genuinely blissful.

Since 09.09.2012, we have fought numerous battles in life only be to be stronger as a couple... Hopefully once this new chapter begins for me, I would be able to leave behind my hatred and lack of forgiveness towards my ex-husband. I may not forget my past but I hope to be able to fully forgive myself and him for allowing it to happen...

As I move on to a brand new life ahead, I would still need God's grace to get through till death do us apart. Although different religions between my fiance and me but all the same respect for each other's God. May all prayers be answered and sufficient to last us this lifetime...