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Tuesday, September 23, 2014

Daunting Memories

Hearing this song 'Say Something', will always bring tears to my eyes. This is a song which will bring up my heart - breaking memories and my deepest pain. A pain which no one would fully comprehend and understand. A memory which would forever be etched in my mind and heart...

Letting go of what was once dear to me. Letting go of what I thought was mine forever to keep. Letting go of my dreams and admitting that it was doomed from the start. Confronting reality right in my face when I wasn't very much prepared for. Dealing with what I was in denial of due to my own pride and disbelief. Accepting the true fact and moving on with a damaged past.

Thankfully my fiancé could empathise with me and doesn't rush me into making any major decisions. Although I know he is eager to start a future with me, prepared to purchase a house with me and is ready to make me his wife, I am still contemplating and fearful. I am still holding back due to profound fears. I am apprehensive to gamble my future happiness again.

He is patiently waiting for me to be ready.  Waiting for me to step out from my fears... Only God knows when I would be ready...

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