When I was much younger, I always wanted to be a mum of two kids by the age of 30, so that I could go for a hysterectomy (removal of womb) as I hated my menses. Of course, the father of my kids would be someone who loves me as much as I love him. I wanted a happy and complete family. However, such simple dreams were not met. Instead, I went through a hell of divorce at the age of 29 and survived to fall in love unknowingly again but was met with parental disapproval. At age of 30, I am engaged to this guy who loves me more than I love him, however, due to his financial status, we can't get married just yet.
Although, I have met my career goals by age 30 and even exceeded my own expectations by getting a degree, but, I don't judge my own life based just career and some 'toilet paper' certification, which means absolutely nothing me than just slight monetary happiness. It is also not as if I am earning a $5K salary that I should be rejoicing. My pay is also average as compared to my peers, not that fantastic!
What I crave in life is not met. What I wished for in my life, didn't come true. What I prayed for feverishly was not answered.
Now as I am transiting into my 31st age, I shall wish that within the next year, my life goals of having a happy and blissful family would come true. *cross fingers*
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