Random 'Before I Sleep' Thoughts

As I lay in bed next to the man whom I had entrusted my next decades of happiness in, I begin to think of the good old times, reminiscing the first day we chatted on MIRC, talked on the phone, met for dinner, held hands, kissed, all the way to where we are today. This road of relationship wasn't smooth. It was full of highs and downs, ranging from parental objections to almost ending it all due to exasperation. But I am glad that we managed to 'conquer' all the obstacles that almost destroyed us.

Not many people knows exactly we went through. Only we, ourselves, know every obstacles that stood in our way and how hard we fought to keep this relationship going till what it is today. Although those flames of romance has sort of been extinguished over the time, we still have our own ways to show that we still care and love for each other.

Next month, we walk into 11 years since we been a couple... It may sound short to some and long to some. But to me, these 11 years wasn't a walk in the park. I had suffered a lot. I cried a lot. I almost wanted to give up and to walk away. I've been through lots of pain. I have been jeered at for loving him. I was mocked at for choosing him instead of other guys. He too, have been mocked and jeered at for being with me by his own friends. Yet, today, we still stand firm on our own mutual belief in each other that we are meant for one another.

If I had a choice to choose once more. I would still choose him and still want to walk down the same path we did years ago. Of course, I would change and prevented a mistake for and paid dearly for. I won't make that silly mistake that affected my relationship with him. I would not allow myself to fall into that pit-hole again.

Above all, I still love him to bits and may time prove to me that all my love invested would be worth effort. May death do us apart. Amen.