Miss TPSS Days...

My parents has left for USA yesterday and I am left to enjoy my own home alone. Yes, alone! Don't get mistaken, I didn't argue with my husband, just that I feel like spending my time alone in my own home with no one to disturb me. I want to enjoy myself with the freedom to do whatever I like, whenever I please.

Yesterday was 080808 but nothing special happened to me. Maybe just one- I passed my 3mths long Gynae-oncology course! Now I have moved on to research course...

Anyway, back to my solitude lifestyle for the past 2 days. I was on the net, surfing around and listening to some back to the school days songs and watching the Beijing Olympic openings. While I was listening to those good old school days song, it of course reminded of my secondary days. The carefree-ness to enjoy myself with friends. The art of 'pontang-ing' during the last few weeks of school before the 'O' levels, the comparing of dishes we prepared with my close friends, the Seoul Garden buffet every Friday after school, the crushes and crushees relationship, the innnocence of one-sided love for someone whom in the end left the school when he was in Sec 3, the joy of playing with my friends along the corridor in between classes, singing aloud like mad girls with my 2 'sisters', snapping of neo-cards plus neo-prints and going home together with one of 'sisters'. Really missed those times when life wasn't full of challenges and much politics. Come to think to it, in those days, I had wished that I would grow up faster to earn my own bucks and enjoy spending the bucks I earn without answering to my parents for what I had spent their money on, lastly to enjoy independence and freedom from my parents' crutches. Now I am everything I had wished for when I was a teenager and now I miss those years. It is so ironic, isn't it? LOL...

Life is such full of uncertainities. I never thought myself to commit my future happiness to a guy at the age of 23. I never thought I would love someone so much to compromise so much of my flaws just to accomodate to him. I never thought I could tolerate so much nonsence and unhappiness in the name of L-O-V-E. I never knew myself to even fall in love with him in the first place and even love him enough to marry him. Anyway, now I am already legally married and next year going to marry him in our customarily, I just pray that this marriage lasts with faithness and happiness until the day one of us leaves this world.