Last Post of 2013

It has arrived. As I send away another not so fulfilling year and welcome a new year, it is time to set new goals and wishes for a brand new year ahead...

Goals for 2014:
- excel at work and meet my target of hitting $150k/mth revenue.
- earn more money and save up for ROM this 28th april 2014 or 9th Sept 2015.
- Go on Vacation overseas at least 3 times this year. Once in May, as usual.

Wishes for 2014:
- peace in the family.
- happiness in my life (family, work, love and friendship).
- health to sustain my hectic schedules.
- acceptance by my parents for my relationship.
- Fiancé to find his dream job for us to stablize our future.

Countries I may want to visit this year:
- KL/ Genting Highlands/ Cameron Highlands
- Darwin (pop by Melbourne if possible)
- Phuket/Krabi
- Cebu/Boracay
- Cruise to a nearby country

Review of Goals for 2013

Here were my goals for 2013:
1) Graduate and get my degree conferment
2) Achieve my long awaited promotion to SSN (have been delayed this year due to my poor work performance as a results of coping emotionally during my initial divorce period)
3) Get my parents' approval for my new boyfriend
4) Travel to Sydney/Perth during May and Edinburgh in winter ($$$$$$$)

Review:
1) Graduated at last despite all the crap that 2012 put me through
2) Promoted in sense, although, I have quit KK, I am now holding a higher position and better pay.
3) Parents hasn't approved my boyfriend and never will (as expected) but it doesn't bother me much anyway. My life, my way!
4) Travelled to Bali in May so Sydney/Perth will have to wait.


--------------------- Seriously in need for $$$$$ blessings for 2014 -----------------------------------

Merry Christmas 2013

To all my blog readers out there...
MERRY XMAS AND HAVE A BLESSED 2014 AHEAD!


PS: I have no Christmas mood this year. Life hasn't been exactly good for me. No bonus this year. No Christmas Eve nor NYE half day from work. *Cursed life*

Reasons

You may not be the most handsome guy on earth.
You may not be the richest guy on earth.
You may not be the most influential guy on earth.
You may not be the most capable guy in your career on earth.
You may not be the ideal height that I require in a guy.
You may not be driving a luxurious car.
But I still love you all the same...

I love you because:
- you are able to make me as your top priority.
- you are able to prove to me that looks isn't as important as personality.
- you are able to show me that action speak louder than words.
- you are able to make good your promises to me.
- you are able to comfort me when I down or stressed out.
- you understand my insecurities and respect my past experiences without judging me.
- you are calm enough to analyze what I fail to analyze during times of need.
- you respect me, my job, my life and my close friends.
- you have shown me that you are trying your best to fight for our future and give me a better future with you.
- you have accepted my physical, mental and emotional flaws whole-heartedly.
- you remain stable and reliable regardless how complicated or shaky a situation may be.
- you are always there for me whenever I needed you the most.
- you have shown me that I am far superior compared to your pride and ego.
- you are able to handle me at my worst.

I pray that the coming 2014 would be a good year for the both of us and we would be able to joined in matrimonial union on 28 April 2014 as discussed... I hope to be your lawful wedded wife by the end of 2014. I am more or less ready to committed to another marriage, 'cause I want to trust in you and be part of your future.

Thanks for planning such a sweet and sincere proposal at Jewel Box on 09.09.2013.

1 Month Left to End of 2013

December is here. That means that 2013 is nearly over in another 31 days.  So fast. It seems that 2013 had just whisked by in a jiffy... Another year gone by and I am still stagnant with nothing much to boast or to claim credit for.

I am just wondering how did 2013 past me by so fast? Perhaps it is because 2013 was filled with many changes to my life and I spent 2013 adapting to these changes with regards to family, BGR and work matters. I had no time to breathe and relax, the changes just hit me one after another.

I just hope 2014 would be a better year (as predicted) as I am sick and tired with my current life...  May 2014 bring me more joys than sorrows. 

Once In A While...

Once in a while, I am reminded that I am afterall a divorcee.
Once in a while, I get this naggy feeling that I am not that successful afterall.
Once in a while, I have this passive thoughts that I am suffering the karma of being a self-centred and feminist person as a teenager as well as during my early adulthood.
Once in a while, I feel suppressed under the feet of fate and being played out by God.
Once in a while, I am forced to admit defeat that I am nothing more than just a below average human being.
Once in a while, my life sucks so much that I wish that I never did existed.
Once in a while, I wished I could retreat into my personal dark space and be left alone to wallow in self-pity.
Once in a while, I wonder the reason of existence for my life and how I can fulfill the reason of existence so that I can earn my rights to enter the Kingdom of Heaven and meet my God.
Once in a while, I pray feverishly, even though I know that I was forsaken and perhaps, forgotten by God.
Once in a while, I am misunderstood and misjudged by mortals that think that they know me well enough to rule my life.
Once in a while, I am controlled by my own irrational emotions and insecurities to behave weirdly.
Once in a while, I silently slip into depression without anyone noticing and managed to lie to eveyone else that I am fine.

That's my life of me, myself and I. How pathetic!

More Than A Year Later From 18 Nov 2012

18 Nov 2013 marks 365 days after the freedom of singlehood... Life post-divorce...
Much have changed.
1) He finally disconnected his mobile line as promised. *THANKFULLY, AT LONG LAST*
2) I am engaged.
3) I got my degree with distinction (something he perhaps never expected, 'cause he thought I would give up my studies due to the divorce and that I would 'die' without him).
4) I changed my workplace and am holding a dual position in my new workplace.
5) I am considering, seriously considering getting ROM again in 2014... *just a thought* No concrete plans yet.
6) I am considering to do my Masters In Nursing in the next few years to come or maybe not due to family commitments if I really get married and have a kid/kids
7) I have been travelling around frequently, at least once every 3 months. (something I was unable to do when I was married before.)
8) I am fighting a new battle with my parents and their disapproval of my current relationship. 9) Family dynamics have changed as my dad starts to andropause and becomes a little more temperamental.

Lastly and mostly importantly, I am a much improved me and I have learned to enjoy myself better. I have the full support a good boyfriend or should I say,  fiance, to do whatever I desire, within reasonable boundaries. His love is shown through actions than just words, something that I would appreciate in a relationship.

As 2013 comes to a close in nearly a month more,  I pray for a better 2014 to come in all aspects of my life...