Highest & Lowest Of 2008

It is 31 Dec 2008, roughly 7hrs more to the welcoming of 2009. It is every year, on this same day that I would sum up my highest point and lowest point of the year and wish for some stuff for the next upcoming year. Thus, this year's post would be the same for me, ranting on my most 'proud' of event and the most horrible event that makes me 'disgusted' or pissed during the past 2008, then would be my wishes for the upcoming 2009:

Event that makes me the happiest and most glad for 2008: Achieving my Gynae-Oncology nursing certification that makes me a Gynae-Onco trained nurse.

Event that makes me upset and disgusted in 2008: I have summarised it into one category- in law issue, which includes having an argument with my Mum In Law as well as a new addition to my in law's family which makes her my sister in law.


Now for what I wish for 2009:
a) to having a fulfilling marriage filled with more romantic moments with my husband.
b) to be able to make it on the red carpet for my customary wedding ceremony on 10 May, among all my close friends and our family members.
c) to be able to have a good working relationship with all my colleagues.
d) to be selected for Advanced Diploma In Oncology Nursing course which starts in October.



Let's see on 31 Dec 2009, how many of the above wishes have I been able to achieve or fulfill...

As I was reading my 31 Dec 2007 post on my old blog, I realized I ended 2007 without much hope for 2008 and in quite a depressing state of mind wishing that 2008 would be a better year. I must say indeed, it was slightly better but there were still the emotional roller coaster ride in the sense of my marriage life taking me to another level in improving myself for the betterment of one-self's patience as well as strengthening of my ownself emotionally and mentally.

Ok, all prepared for 2009 to come and to face whatever 2009 would hurl at me...

New Lappie

Finally, my own lappie... There goes my bonus... But at last, my own lappie to carry around and to save my stuff...

My Christmas Gift 4 Myself

Rewarded myself with a Christmas gift, which came by post today...
Welcome my new addition to my Coach collection... LOLX

Merry Christmas

It is Christmas today and I have spend the day resting at my in-laws' place, going back to my own place tonight.
Don't worry, I have stood firm on my decision not to move back to my in laws' place as I am still somehow unhappy about on how I was treated by my mother in law. Although, now I can see that she is making efforts to win my heart back by cooking my favourite food, but, it ain't that easy for me to give in to her, especially not after how she has treated me before and what she had said to me in fit of anger that eventful night.
Call me petty but I am standing firm on my decision not to forgive her unless she apologizes or unless something seriously bad to her until it softens my heart to the extend of me empathizing her.
My husband also has expressed his displeasure of staying my place.
Thus, the future looks quite bleak of what will happen next...
Wish me luck that this matter would not affect my marriage next year or our relationship.

Merry Christmas once again...

安静了

只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里
梦想中属於我们的婚礼
却成了单人结婚进行曲

在这场爱情角力的拔河里
爱我还是爱你
你选择了自己

撒娇的可爱的
迷人的爱哭的
照片里曾经的都是你喜欢的

如今我还在原地
你却走回你的记忆

你说我爱你太多就快要把你淹没
你害怕幸福短暂一秒就崩落
分开是一种解脱让你好好的想过
我想要的那片天空你是不是能够给我

你说我给你太多却不能给我什麽
分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑
爱情是一道伤口我们各自苦痛
沉默是我最后温柔是因为我太爱你

只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里
梦想中属於我们的婚礼
安静了在我枕边的梦里

我知道相爱原本就不容易
爱不是一场雨
努力就有结局

撒娇的可爱的
迷人的爱哭的
照片里曾经的都是你爱着你的
连假的泪还温热
却没有人握我的手

你说我爱你太多就快要把你淹没
你害怕幸福短暂一秒就崩落
分开是一种解脱让你好好的想过
我想要的那片天空你是不是能够给我

你说我给你太多却不能给我什麽
分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑
爱情是一道伤口我们各自苦痛
沉默是我最后温柔是因为我太爱你

Sheena's Wedding

Attended my God-sister, who is also my cousin, Sheena's wedding today held at Clarke Quay's Peony Jade Restaurant. It was a Retro themed wedding.
Anyway, as expected, she was the first to get married as we had bet since young. She was always saying that she will never get married until she had enough fun and that would be when she hits her 30s. However, she is 26 this year and she has got herself a man to marry. Lucky woman! Hopefully 5mths down the road would be my turn...

Updates On My Miserable Life

WORK:
It has been quite busy and it seems like GCC and BRC wants us to open up all the slots as they have been complaining about having difficulty finding slots for booking of the chemotherapy on the specific dates they want. However, they don't see our issue of having limited resources and also we need to attend to unforeseen circumstances of patients having allergy reactions or having trouble getting the chemotherapy drugs on time. Haiz... So sad and frustrating!
Breast doctors are threatening to bring the patients to NCC, if we don't give them the chemotherapy appointments.
Patients are also bugging us to give them the appointments with 1001 excuses on how they want finish their treatment on time, how worried they are if they miss the treatments, etc...


MARRIAGE LIFE:
Husband has been asking to when I want to return back with him to his place as his mum is asking him weekly about my absence. It just pisses me off. I am annoyed that he doesn't seem to understand how I feel about being treated as well as the difficulties I will face when I return. I am also annoyed that his mum can pretend as if nothing has happened, she acts like she has forgotten what she had said to me, accused me of hitting her son when I didn't, told me never to step into the house ever again as well as how she literally chased me out the house, telling me not to contact her son. I am irritated on how she can even go ask her brother, my husband's god-father to call my husband to settle things.
Anyway, I told my husband clearly over and over again, I wouldn't stop him from going back but for me to go back and pretend that nothing ever happened is kind of impossible. I even told me that the mere sight of his mum or her voice just simply annoys me. Yes, I am that turned off by her! She has really gotten onto my nerve this time.


FAMILY LIFE:
My cousin is getting hitched this Saturday. Kind of envious of her... Few friends around are also getting married. So envious of them! Most brides are happily preparing to walk down aisle while I am faced with so many obstacles and difficulties getting married. New things always seems to crop up to threaten to destroy my beautiful dreams of having a wonderful marriage. So sickening! Don't know what I had done to deserve such crap? Why can't I be like the rest of the brides, happily preparing for their wedding day? Why can't I be like the rest of the brides, having a smooth road down the aisle?


It seems like God has neglected me and has forsaken me for the past 2 plus years, not blessing me with a happy life and marriage... Why???