Random Rant of Bitterness

When you almost have up on Nursing, I cheered you and motivated you.
Without me, you won't have your diploma.
I did your homework for geography, literature, freshman composition and human sexuality.
Without me, you won't even achieve your degree!
When you were a nobody and the whole world despising you, I stood by you.
Without me, you wouldn't be a wrecked mess.
Now that you have made it through and 'someone' in life, you betrayed me.
Some man you are! I do hope karma would catch up on you one day and may she be more ruthless than you were with me. Perhaps when that day happens, you will finally understand the pain you brought upon me. Perhaps when that day comes, I won't be around anymore for you to offer your apology. Perhaps when that day comes, I won't even know you.

I really hope to forget you and erase you out of my memories. I wish you didn't even exist in the first place. I wish that I didn't even know you or loved u so much in the beginning.

Studying Life Sucks

Dear God,
I am getting pretty much sick and tired my study-life. I am losing interest in my studies. I am less motivated to complete my last semester of studies. I am more compelled to stop studying and give up, but people around me are cheering me that its my last semester and only 2 more months to finally be able to graduate (that's if I pass). The truth is that I am so tired of studying and mugging for all those assignments, especially when the topic is so boring: research and theories of nursing. I totally hate research for one and I dislike history that explains my dislike for theories nursing. What Nightingale's theory or Orem's theory or Watson's theory or Maslow's theory? Haiz, I know it relates to modern day nursing but I really don't wish to study about them anymore.
I am just going to do my assignments haphazardly, God, just like me pass this last 2 modules. I don't aim for any merits or distinction. Just a pass and I am contented. Amen.


PS: I promised never to study ever again. Maybe take up courses but no concentrate studies which require exams or assignments. I want to lead my life like the cat in my attached pix!

What Was Never Meant To Be Mine

Blogging this post while sitting in front of what was supposed to be my love-nest, however, it doesn't belong to me anymore. I have signed it back to HDB.
Something that I had looked forward to for the past 2-3years is finally done and built, but it isn't mine anymore. Something that I had been planning for the past 2-3years is finally ready, but yet, I am not owing it anymore. How disappointing is that?!
Today, I will walk in here for the first time and the last time. I want to know what I had to let go for my future happiness. I want to know what that guy has caused me to lose. Emotionally tormenting but yet reality.

Good-bye, Punggol Residence, Blk 271D, #08-549...

Amelia, Something Was Wrong With You

Amelia, something was seriously wrong with your brain and character. Seriously flawed and too compromising. I really wonder how you could tolerate such crappy behavior from him and stand his nonsensical, egoistical attitude towards you for the 6 years as his wife... How could you serve him like a lord and still allow him to treat you the way he did for the past 6 years? I really am amazed at your tolerance level to put up with his f-ing mannerism through these 6 years.
But I am glad for you that you have finally decided to walk away and move on with your own life, a more confident and stronger woman than I have expected you to be. I am proud of your ways now, you are much more worthy now than you were as his wife. I could see that you are happier now, much more blissful than you were married to him as well as better off without him.
Amelia, oh Amelia, thank your lucky stars and guardian angel for the 'wake up' call.
May you faster settle your divorce and be officially single again. I wish you all the best in your new life come 15th Nov 2012.

Lego Land

Needed a short getaway from this crazy & busy life...
Needed a breather from all the stress of assignments and exams...
Needed a pre-holiday mood to prepare myself for December trip to Manado...

Given Up

http://youtu.be/OMi6hyqgpbg

sinking into this depressive mood.
lost my drive to continue studying.
mentally stressed with multiple issues.
reviewing my life this year: sux.

BROKEN.

When all that you've tried, leaves nothing but holes inside,
It seems like you're wired, to stay here held in time,
'Cause nothing seems to change.
No nothing's gonna change, at all.
I can see it in your face, the hope has gone away.
If you hold tight, shadows will be lost in the light.
'Cause sometimes, fate and your dreams will collide.