Random 'Before I Sleep' Thoughts

As I lay in bed next to the man whom I had entrusted my next decades of happiness in, I begin to think of the good old times, reminiscing the first day we chatted on MIRC, talked on the phone, met for dinner, held hands, kissed, all the way to where we are today. This road of relationship wasn't smooth. It was full of highs and downs, ranging from parental objections to almost ending it all due to exasperation. But I am glad that we managed to 'conquer' all the obstacles that almost destroyed us.

Not many people knows exactly we went through. Only we, ourselves, know every obstacles that stood in our way and how hard we fought to keep this relationship going till what it is today. Although those flames of romance has sort of been extinguished over the time, we still have our own ways to show that we still care and love for each other.

Next month, we walk into 11 years since we been a couple... It may sound short to some and long to some. But to me, these 11 years wasn't a walk in the park. I had suffered a lot. I cried a lot. I almost wanted to give up and to walk away. I've been through lots of pain. I have been jeered at for loving him. I was mocked at for choosing him instead of other guys. He too, have been mocked and jeered at for being with me by his own friends. Yet, today, we still stand firm on our own mutual belief in each other that we are meant for one another.

If I had a choice to choose once more. I would still choose him and still want to walk down the same path we did years ago. Of course, I would change and prevented a mistake for and paid dearly for. I won't make that silly mistake that affected my relationship with him. I would not allow myself to fall into that pit-hole again.

Above all, I still love him to bits and may time prove to me that all my love invested would be worth effort. May death do us apart. Amen.

Marriage 2 Me

I would not leave you in times of trouble.
We never could have come this far.
I took the good times, I'll take the bad times.
I take you just the way you are.

I need to know that you will always be
The same old someone that I knew.
What will it take till you believe in me
The way that I believe in you.

I said I love you. Thats forever.
This I promise from the heart
I could not love you any better.
I love you just the way you are.

Love you, Accept you for who are.
Love you, Accept your flaws.
Love you, Accept your 'disability'.
Love you, Accept my own fate with you.


PS: Still praying for the miracle... :)

Fragility Of Life

3,676 confirmed dead, 7,558 unaccounted for in Japan quake tragedy

God bless the souls of those dead and give those who have lost their loved ones in the Japan earthquake and Tsunami, the strength to rebuild their own lives and move on...

Woes Of Having A Future House

Princess Jo finally have gotten her new house in Fernvale. So after my night duty, I went down on Monday after my night duty to 'kapo' around and see how she deals with renovation of an empty house. Man! Totally freaked out at the size of the house and the master-bed room... Small! Her ceiling was also low. The kitchen was small too. I guess my future house would also be like that. I have to start thinking how to cope in smaller space as I am used to houses with more than 100 meter square and my future house would be a pathetic 93 meter square only...

She told me that she had already busted her pockets for the renovations and it started to worry me. I wonder how much I should be saving for my own house renovation cost, plus all the furniture to buy. Wow! It would be like spending for a second wedding except this time no way to recover cost. No one would give you red packet for house warming. Anyway, I doubt I would have any 'grand' house-warming as my husband and I are pretty much anti-social people who doesn't much close friends. Thus, perhaps when the day comes, I would just invite my few close friends and family members for a small party.

The most important point of all, I must start saving for my future house in order to furnish it nicely, buy all the necessary furniture and electrical appliances and ensure that the home would be place where my husband and I would be happy to come back after a tiring day at work.

I am so looking forward to everything but yet 'heartache' to see all the money fly away during the renovations and buying of furniture, etc...

Waiting For The Day Of Miracle 2 Happen

But only love can say, try again or walk away.
But I believe for you and me, the sun will shine one day.
So I'll just play my part and pray you'll have a change of heart.
But I can't make you see it through, that's something only love can do.

I know if I could find the words to touch you deep inside, you would give our dream just one more chance...

Personality Test I Took

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Enneagram Test Results Type 1 Perfectionism |||||||||||||||| 70% Type 2 Helpfulness |||||||||| 31% Type 3 Image Focus |||||||||||||||||||| 82% Type 4 Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||||| 75% Type 5 Detachment |||||||||||| 45% Type 6 Anxiety |||||||||||||||| 67% Type 7 Adventurousness |||||||||||||| 51% Type 8 Aggressiveness |||||||||||||||||||| 82% Type 9 Calmness |||||||||| 37% Your main type is 3 Your variant is sexual

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Fast Moving

My brother in law brought a female home tonight! So exciting and I am happy for him. Happy that he has moved on...

Although he claimes that this female is just a colleague of his, but, you don't invite colleagues into your room and share childhood photo album of your brother and you. Moreover, you don't start giggling and laughing with the girl over the childhood pictures....

Anyway, this girl looks like in her early 30s and the way she dresses 'feels' like a malaysian. Didn't get to talk to her but only glanced at her a few times, while she was sitting in my bro-in law's room, on his bed flipping the album with him by her side.

Hopefully, it works out and it is nice to see him find himself another girlfriend to start a new relationship. Whether the 'ba zi' of the female and me does collide or not will be known... Until I get to know her better and when she visits more often in future, den we shall see...

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