I guess that I would blogging lesser and lesser. Not because my life has became mundane and definitely not because I find it 'Bo Liao', but, because I see my life as being contented right now. I am currently comfortable in my daily life: be it at work, family life, marriage and in my own free time to do just about I like or fancy. No strings to bind me tightly, restricting my movements and how much time I would like to spend on each aspects of my life. No one to stop me on spending time with my parents, friends and hobbies of baking/cooking/shopping during my 'me time'. No one to dictate what time I can leave the house or what time I have to get home.
Although life isn't perfect yet for me but I guess coming from the lows of my life for the past nearly 12 years, I would say life is better and less stressful. No need to thread on thin ice to do my own stuff, no need to be extra careful on what I say due to fear of having my concerns being misunderstood, no fear of endless quarrels with husband, no worries about having a husband who digs up my past as a form of personal attack and I have a calm family life with both my parents and in laws.
Work and salary is acceptable. I don't need to worry on who to pay for meals or how to be calculatively dividing who to pay for what household expenses. I can be assure that I have a stable job as long as I don't mess up things or work systems. I have an understanding and appreciative manager, who values my loyalty and work performance. That is adequate for me.
I have my own free time to listen to music, cooking, baking, trying new recipes, shopping, going for solo walks or long bus rides to destress myself. Of course, at times I do think of him and my past but they don't get me as down as it used to be. I am more attuned and learnt to live with those memories, not allowing them to drag me down. I have let go and forgave him for all that he has done.
Life is just good enough for me now. Stay that way, please...
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