I am almost done praying for the 'miracle' in my marriage. It is never gonna happen and I have to stop hoping for it. To some, it is the most important element in a marriage and to some, it ain't a big deal. In my heart, mind and soul, it was and still is considered an important aspect of a marriage BUT it should not be used as a form of judgement for whether a marriage is successfully blissful or as a form of proof for fidelity in marriage.
Anyway, I just need to let this out of my chest! Ok. Just for the record, if I ever have a son, I would name him, Xavier. If I ever had a girl, I would name her Alethea. Don't ask me how I got these names and why I love my kids to bear those names? I don't know either. Just liked it and have been telling myself this for the past few years. I have even prayed about it. However, it seems God doesn't want to bless me with a kid or perhaps, He doesn't feel I should be given the gift of love.
Now that I am done with this rant. Good. I am happy to sleep and allow this matter to rest in peace forever. Yet another unhappiness I have in God! Whatever! I still believe in Him and worship Him.
About Me
- Mint + Bitter Chocolate = Heaven
- Just the blunt and honest me. Just someone who needs to air her inner most feelings and thoughts. Just a female who suffers from a crazy life journey, with lots of ups and down in her life. Just another moronic human being who wishes for peace and serenity in life one day.
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