I Am Not A Perfect Wife, Never Is & Never Will Be

I am just a plain woman who requests for a happy & stable marriage. A woman who just want her husband to treasure & appreciates me for the things I do for him. Is that so hard?

You have your bad mood days and so do I! You have to work to earn money and I am no different!
You are not the only one who likes to laze around and not do a single thing around the house. I also would like to laze around, not having to worry if the clothes are washed, ironed or fret over the fact that dishes are not washed or think about when was the last time the bed linen were changed or when was the floor cleaned and mopped or is fridge stocked up with enough groceries to last us for the next few days.
You have your pride and 'face' to maintain in front of your parents, I also have my own pride and 'face' to uphold as a daughter in-law to your parents.
You had a good life from young with your parents picking up your mess, attending to your needs and always giving in to you. I have parents who taught me the meaning of self-dependence and how to try to compromise to others while keeping mum about my own unhappiness if possible to maintain a happy and stable living environment.
You have your tolerance limits to how much I nag at you but have you ever listened to my reason for nagging? Do you even know what triggered it? Do you know what made me so unhappy that I have to nag about it? NO! YOU ARE JUST PLAINLY ABSORBED INTO YOUR OWN WORLD, LIVING LIFE THE WAY YOU LIKE IT TO BE! 'CAUSE YOU HAVE THE MENTALITY THAT WITHOUT ME, YOU HAVE YOUR MUM TO DEPEND ON AND I MEAN NOTHING IN YOUR LIFE!

You used to suck up to me whenever we have an argument. In the present few years, you just pretend as nothing happened whenever we have an argument and you choose to maintain your pride and not apologize. You always think you are right and never wrong. At the back of your mind, I am always the one at fault, I am the unreasonable one, I am the trouble-maker and I am getting out of hand... Well, continue living in your own world, one day, your mum would die and leave you. By then, perhaps (just maybe) you would realize the importance of me in your life. The same goes for your dad and brother, cause they are like you, always dependent on your mum to care for their daily needs and she is one who would always clear their mess after them.

I must also thank your mum for constantly cheering you on despite your own mistakes and making you think I am unworthy of you. I must respect her for her determination in making the world think I am a bad daughter in law, a bad wife and a bad person.



PS: Just remember, you have parents and so do I, except my parents do correct me of my mistakes and they do guide me to be a better person...