Last Lap

Today, I was told by my lecturer that the whole class has passed their exams and can get ready for graduation (provided we passed the OJT)... Woo Hoo!!! So finally, I am on my final lap before securing my Advance Diploma!!!

Recently, I was starting to miss the studying 'effect' as I have started to go back to my shift work, even though I am still carrying the status of a student nurse, I am expected to work and be competent like a full-flegded RN, which is good and bad....

Was thinking of studying somemore, like a degree in nursing... but... back to the same old low esteem of unsure if I can pull through the studying phrase and graduate with a degree. Don't want to waste time and money if I don't succeed in getting the degree...

Anyways, to reward myself, I went on a nice dinner at The Cathay Restaurant with hubby and topped off the evening with Shrek: The Final Chapter 3D! Cool!!!

Love the show, love the 3D effect!!!

Nice Ending For The Birthday

The day ended with a surprise bouquet of roses and Korean dinner with husband. Although he did not verbalized any form of sweet words of apology or even wish me a 'Happy Birthday', I am contented and gave in to his gestures...

What Happy Birthday?!

Tommorrow is my birthday but looks like it would be a sad birthday.

Hurricane storm with husband and I screwed up at attachement due to something that is not directly my fault.

Having a cold war with my husband means no more birthday mood or even the slightest chance of celebration is gone. Really don't understand why I still choose to hang on to this quarrelsome man who tends to provoke me on purpose. I wonder what he stands to gain when he makes me angry and we quarrel, especially when the arguement turns into a heated one, where his parents would step in to intervene before the 'fire' escalated furthur...

WTF!

Anyway, still a Happy Birthday to my bestie cum 'sister', CW, who would be celebrating her birthday on the 13th... Wishing her mood would be better than mine and she would be much happier with her life than me... :)

A Decade Of Couplehood

10 years is a long time. I have spent the past decade loving him, tolerating him, being loved by him and yet being tormented by him. These 10 years had lots of laughter, love, fair share of romance but also lots of tears, regrets, anger and unhappiness. This relationship was never smooth!
I wonder how many more decades would I have with him? How many more decades would I have to spend as his wife... How many more decades of sacrifices would I have to give?
I have choosen a road of no return. Since I have choosen to marry and love him from the start, I have no return back. Although at times, he makes me really mad and fed up but my love of him remains the same after I have cooled off.
Wishing us many more decades of marriage and love to come.


*updated: an anniversary night ended up into yet another heated arguement leading to cold war*

没那么简单

没那么简单
就能找到聊得来的伴
尤其是在看过了那么多的背叛
总是不安只好强悍
谁谋杀了我的浪漫
没那么简单
就能去爱别的全不看
变得实际也许好也许坏各一半
不爱孤单一久也习惯
不用担心谁也不用被谁管
感觉快乐就忙东忙西
感觉累了就放空自己
别人说的话随便听一听
自己作决定
不想拥有太多情绪
一杯红酒配电影
在周末晚上关上了手机
舒服窝在沙发里
相爱没有那么容易
每个人有他的脾气
过了爱作梦的年纪
轰轰烈烈不如平静
幸福没有那么容易
才会特别让人着迷
什么都不懂的年纪
曾经最掏心
所以最开心曾经
想念最伤心
但却最动心的记忆

How Do You Say Good Bye??

How do you say good bye when you know you haven't let it go?
How do you say good bye when you know you ain't ready to let it go?
How do you say good bye when you know you would regret letting it go?
How do you say good bye when you know it would be near impossible to let it go and even harder to move on?
How do you say good bye when you know your life would crumble when you let it go?