- 2 nights in a row, I had to stay up past midnight waiting for him to come back just to heat up his dinner 'cause I understand he has a hard day at work and missed his dinner. Last night, added abalone slices to his dinner dish and got chided for adding it. He even told me he actually doesn't really like abalone taste. WTF!
- Messaged and called him few times only to be ignored and no replies. WTF! I just want to spend some quality time with him!
- Turned up for group meeting today, only to be told 1hr later that the group meeting was cancelled as someone couldn't finish her assignment that was due today. WTF!
- Passed a classmate some information she wanted to search for, only to be told by her that she already found the information from someone else and thus, mine was not needed. WTF!
I am really getting real pissed at myself being too nice and helpful. I am totally sick and tired of being the 'nice' wife who serves her husband like lord only to be told off and ignored. I feel like a total fool! What good deed will reap good results or good things?! Crap!
He is not the only one tired and stressed! Although I don't have work to do but I have ASSIGNMENTS and TUTORIALS to do. Yes, I do take naps sometimes, but that doesn't mean I am not tired and obligated to stay up late to wait for him to heat up food for him! Yes, I may not look stressed but I am! I am afraid that I am not up to my lecturers' standard, I am afraid of failing my module, I am afraid of repeating the module, I am afraid of affecting my 2 years bond!
Argh... why do I strive so hard only in vain? Why do other wife and students cope so much better than me? Why do other husbands appreciate their wives while mine takes me for granted?! WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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- Just the blunt and honest me. Just someone who needs to air her inner most feelings and thoughts. Just a female who suffers from a crazy life journey, with lots of ups and down in her life. Just another moronic human being who wishes for peace and serenity in life one day.
3 comments:
hmmmmm... relax... sometimes things happen that makes u feel unappreciated, but the light will come some time soon. so don't need to fret :)
thks :)
well, I finally snapped at the ones who made me feel unappreciated and 'woke' them up. so i feel much better now :)
hmmm... sometimes doing good things do not need to be returned or they need not have to show they appreciate u... u have done ur part as a kind-hearted person. whatever else doesn't really matter. as long as u can face urself. so i don't see the point to snap at people....
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