Amelia, Something Was Wrong With You

Amelia, something was seriously wrong with your brain and character. Seriously flawed and too compromising. I really wonder how you could tolerate such crappy behavior from him and stand his nonsensical, egoistical attitude towards you for the 6 years as his wife... How could you serve him like a lord and still allow him to treat you the way he did for the past 6 years? I really am amazed at your tolerance level to put up with his f-ing mannerism through these 6 years.
But I am glad for you that you have finally decided to walk away and move on with your own life, a more confident and stronger woman than I have expected you to be. I am proud of your ways now, you are much more worthy now than you were as his wife. I could see that you are happier now, much more blissful than you were married to him as well as better off without him.
Amelia, oh Amelia, thank your lucky stars and guardian angel for the 'wake up' call.
May you faster settle your divorce and be officially single again. I wish you all the best in your new life come 15th Nov 2012.

Lego Land

Needed a short getaway from this crazy & busy life...
Needed a breather from all the stress of assignments and exams...
Needed a pre-holiday mood to prepare myself for December trip to Manado...

Given Up

http://youtu.be/OMi6hyqgpbg

sinking into this depressive mood.
lost my drive to continue studying.
mentally stressed with multiple issues.
reviewing my life this year: sux.

BROKEN.

When all that you've tried, leaves nothing but holes inside,
It seems like you're wired, to stay here held in time,
'Cause nothing seems to change.
No nothing's gonna change, at all.
I can see it in your face, the hope has gone away.
If you hold tight, shadows will be lost in the light.
'Cause sometimes, fate and your dreams will collide.

Out of Town For 2012 Countdown

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As planned... I am leaving town to celebrate new year 2013. Don't wish to be in Singapore to welcome 2013, too much painful memories to be celebrating countdown differently this year after celebrating countdowns with him for the past 12 years.

Not sure who is coming along with me. May end up going alone as initially planned. If I am lucky, my future boyfriend, would be with me and celebrating the countdown with me...

God bless my 2013 and years to come.. I hope...

Half A Year On...

6 months since I have walked out of his life.
6 months since I have stepped out his house.
6 months since I have made the final choice to leave this marriage behind.
6 months since I have agreed to his decision for divorce.
6 months of singlehood, freedom, enjoyment and self-centredness

SO...
WHOEVER SAID I CAN'T LIVE MY LIFE WITHOUT YOU?
WHOEVER SAID I WOULD DIE WITHOUT YOU?
WHOEVER SAID I COULD NEVER FIND SOMEONE ELSE WORTHY OF ME?
WHOEVER SAID I COULD NEVER FIND SOMEONE ELSE WHO WOULD LOVE ME FOR ME, LOVE ME FOR WHO I AM NATURALLY?

Next month would be the finalising of the divorce papers and I am so looking forward to receiving those papers of ultimate freedom, whereby, I would really have no so-whatever connection with you anymore. Officially next month, I would be able to enjoy the whole dating process without guilt or fear of being labelled as committing adultery, then, I can officially confirm my relationship with my new guy.

Crazy Idea Again

7 years ago, I did an ear cartilage piercing which ended up with an infection and the ear piercing hole has (duh?) closed up. Now, 7 years later, I crave the same type of piercing, but I forgot which ear I had it pierced before...

No one to stop me now. No one to consider on whether he would approve or not. No need to seek any more permission to pierce my ear. Freedom of singlehood.

Now, I have to consider which side to re-pierce again... Any suggestions?