不值得

我真的真的想放弃
你始终没有爱过
你在敷衍我
一次一次忽略我的感受
我真的感到力不从心
无力继续
这感情不值得我犹豫
不值得我考虑
不值得我爱过你
这种回忆不值得我提起
不值得想起
不值得哭泣
这段感情早就应该放弃
早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹
这样的你不值得我恨你
不值得我为你而坏了心情
我决定不为你而毁了心
放弃爱你

我走了。。。

What It Takes For Me to Feel Happy & Blissful

In my own opinion happiness/Feeling Blissful is when:
1) Witnessing a 全家福 that includes my parents and husband, knowing that all 4 of us sincerely trying to get along despite all the character or physical flaws of one another. The acceptance of one another as part of the family is comforting.
2) Sitting beside my husband as he takes over the steering wheel of my father's car and drives down the highway of Malaysia.
3) Being overseas with my dad and husband in the same vehicle, chit-chating, joking and having meals in a day trip.
4) Having a meal with my parents and husband all at one table every alternate Sunday evening.
5) Joking and creating laughters with my parents in-laws over a simple statement.

Those things were dreams and hopes I had years ago. Now these are reality and I hope they stay the same for many more years to come.