After some wise words from friends, family and my husband, I have decided to let go the 'what-ifs' and 'sense of possible betrayal' from you during our marriage. Nothing is for certain and non-conclusive. I also don't wish to dig furthur, as there wouldn't be any use nor benefits to me to know too much. Afterall, I am comfortable and fairly happy with my current life. So since life after you is much to my content, there isn't any purpose to search who she is, how you know her, how long you have been with her and whether you are being under 'black magic' or so whatever related to your future marriage... Just let nature takes its own course or karma (be it good or bad) to catch up with you.
However, with that said, that doesn't mean that I would, could and have forgiven you. Neither does it mean that I have forgotten the hurt that you had caused me. (Perhaps you feel the same way, that I have also hurt you during our days before ROM by almost choosing Andy while you were in Taiwan, on NS training and almost considering breaking up with you once you are back from Taiwan. Bear in mind, we were not committed to get engaged nor married, hence, I still have the choice to choose whom I would like to be with or whom I won't want to be with. Don't forget, I left my ex-boyfriend for you too, thinking that you were better for me.) On the hindsight, we had probably hurt each other at different periods of the relationship and marriage. However, I maintained that what I had done was before marriage and since you had decided to reconcile, proposed to me two years later and mentioned that you had the interest to get ROM with me, you should have not bore this grudges, nor use this excuse as you reason to hurt me back and caused me so much mental as well as emotional torment/turmoil to the extend that I had few fleeting moments of considering suicide.
With all said and done, I wouldn't wish you anything for your impending marriage in 1.5 months time. Just hope this isn't another decision that you would regret, say that you forgot your wedding vows or how you don't understand nor know what you have signed for on the marriage certificate.
Do take care... Love is definitely blind.
