First Post of 2018!
This shows how much I blog nowadays. Instead, most of my life is documentated on Instagram and Facebook with lots of pictures of my baby girl, selfies, random food that I cooked.
3 months into 2018 and I am, honestly, tired. Perhaps tired of all the drama around me, tired of listening to crappy excuses given to me by others for their silly mistakes or ideas, tired of pretending I am OK with my subordinates tardiness at work. With age, I have learnt to filter out things and be more 'ignorance' of dramas that doesn't involve me directly.
Fleets of memories of him did plague me. But I guess that is part of my life-story and it is him that made me who I am today, leading the current life I have. It will always be a reminder to me to never let myself be manipulated in a relationship and to stand firm to my own principles of life.
Recently one of my best friend has been made redundant and it is sad to know that such concerns happens at our age. When my parents were at my age, being retrenched was the last thing on their minds. Now, in this modern era, we are currently treading on this thin ice to ensure we stay relevant on our jobs and fight along side fast advancing technology.
In few months, I am turning 35. I believe, or rather, I hope it would be the middle of my life span. These 35 years of my life has been quite full of ups and down, more downs from the moment I reached my 20s. However, in a sense, I can't believe that I have survived 35 years of craziness in this world. There has been times that I was suicidal, probably even suffering from depression (just that I didn't get myself diagnosed), emotionally raw and upset with my life choices, resulting in many unwanted experiences. But I am glad that I moved on from those days to becoming who I am now.
Let's see what the next 35 years will bring, who knows maybe I won't survive another 35 years due to some illness and/or unfortunate circumstances. Only God knows how long more He will put me on this realm... *grins*
