Amelia, Something Was Wrong With You

Amelia, something was seriously wrong with your brain and character. Seriously flawed and too compromising. I really wonder how you could tolerate such crappy behavior from him and stand his nonsensical, egoistical attitude towards you for the 6 years as his wife... How could you serve him like a lord and still allow him to treat you the way he did for the past 6 years? I really am amazed at your tolerance level to put up with his f-ing mannerism through these 6 years.
But I am glad for you that you have finally decided to walk away and move on with your own life, a more confident and stronger woman than I have expected you to be. I am proud of your ways now, you are much more worthy now than you were as his wife. I could see that you are happier now, much more blissful than you were married to him as well as better off without him.
Amelia, oh Amelia, thank your lucky stars and guardian angel for the 'wake up' call.
May you faster settle your divorce and be officially single again. I wish you all the best in your new life come 15th Nov 2012.

Lego Land

Needed a short getaway from this crazy & busy life...
Needed a breather from all the stress of assignments and exams...
Needed a pre-holiday mood to prepare myself for December trip to Manado...

Given Up

http://youtu.be/OMi6hyqgpbg

sinking into this depressive mood.
lost my drive to continue studying.
mentally stressed with multiple issues.
reviewing my life this year: sux.

BROKEN.

When all that you've tried, leaves nothing but holes inside,
It seems like you're wired, to stay here held in time,
'Cause nothing seems to change.
No nothing's gonna change, at all.
I can see it in your face, the hope has gone away.
If you hold tight, shadows will be lost in the light.
'Cause sometimes, fate and your dreams will collide.

Out of Town For 2012 Countdown

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As planned... I am leaving town to celebrate new year 2013. Don't wish to be in Singapore to welcome 2013, too much painful memories to be celebrating countdown differently this year after celebrating countdowns with him for the past 12 years.

Not sure who is coming along with me. May end up going alone as initially planned. If I am lucky, my future boyfriend, would be with me and celebrating the countdown with me...

God bless my 2013 and years to come.. I hope...

Half A Year On...

6 months since I have walked out of his life.
6 months since I have stepped out his house.
6 months since I have made the final choice to leave this marriage behind.
6 months since I have agreed to his decision for divorce.
6 months of singlehood, freedom, enjoyment and self-centredness

SO...
WHOEVER SAID I CAN'T LIVE MY LIFE WITHOUT YOU?
WHOEVER SAID I WOULD DIE WITHOUT YOU?
WHOEVER SAID I COULD NEVER FIND SOMEONE ELSE WORTHY OF ME?
WHOEVER SAID I COULD NEVER FIND SOMEONE ELSE WHO WOULD LOVE ME FOR ME, LOVE ME FOR WHO I AM NATURALLY?

Next month would be the finalising of the divorce papers and I am so looking forward to receiving those papers of ultimate freedom, whereby, I would really have no so-whatever connection with you anymore. Officially next month, I would be able to enjoy the whole dating process without guilt or fear of being labelled as committing adultery, then, I can officially confirm my relationship with my new guy.

Crazy Idea Again

7 years ago, I did an ear cartilage piercing which ended up with an infection and the ear piercing hole has (duh?) closed up. Now, 7 years later, I crave the same type of piercing, but I forgot which ear I had it pierced before...

No one to stop me now. No one to consider on whether he would approve or not. No need to seek any more permission to pierce my ear. Freedom of singlehood.

Now, I have to consider which side to re-pierce again... Any suggestions?

Collection of Keys

Today, should be the day, we collect the keys to our home.
Today should be the day, I would have my own house, under my own name.
Today should be the day, we walk into our own love-nest.
Today should be the day, our long awaited dreams and plans come true.
Today should be the day, our CPF would be wiped dry to pay for the house.

Too bad, all the above mentioned didn't happen, 'cause you choose to break the convenant of a marriage.

6 Stages of A Failing Relationship

SOUNDS AWFULLY FAMILIAR:

The Beginning: This is always fun. You meet the person for the first time and start spending time together. You get butterflies in your stomach when they are around.

The Bonding: Commitment often begins here. You decide to stay with this person and see where things lead. Love may be present.
The Comfort: The fire has left and has been replaced with a warm comfort for one another. Routines are usually established at this stage.

The Boredom: The relationship becomes boring and you might be bored of each other. You may begin fighting about things that you do not really care about.

The Avoiding: Avoiding each other completely has become normal in your relationship. The only reason you stay together is because of convenience.

The End: The last of all the relationship stages. You may have tried several things to save the relationship but it was too late. You split up.

BEEN THERE DONE THAT!
GUESS I WILL NEVER COMMIT MYSELF FULLY INTO A RELATIONSHIP EVER AGAIN... PERHAPS FALLING IN LOVE IS JUST FUN AND GAME IN THIS MODERN ERA.

=)

I remember when we broke up, the first time
Saying this is it, I've had enough, 'cause like
We haven't seen each other in a month
When you, said you, needed space, what?
Then you come around again and say
Baby, I miss you and I swear I'm gonna change
Trust me, remember how that lasted for a day
I say, I hate you, we break up, you call me, I love you

Oooh we called it off again last night
But Oooh, this time I'm telling you, I'm telling you
We are never ever ever getting back together
We are never ever ever getting back together
You go talk to your friends talk
To my friends talk to me
But we are never ever ever ever getting back together

Like ever...

I'm really gonna miss you picking fights
And me, falling for it screaming that I'm right
And you, will hide away and find your piece of mind, with some indie record
That's much cooler than mine
Oooh you called me up again tonight
But oooh, this time I'm telling you, I'm telling you
We are never ever ever getting back together
We are never ever ever getting back together
You go talk to your friends talk
To my friends talk to me
But we are never ever ever ever getting back together

I used to think, that we, were forever ever
And I used to say never say never

Huh, he calls me up and he's like, I still love you
And I'm like, I'm just, I mean this is exhausting, you know like
We are never getting back together, like ever

No!

We are never ever ever getting back together
We are never ever ever getting back together
You go talk to your friends talk
To my friends talk to me
But we are never ever ever ever getting back together

We, oooh, oooh, not back together, we
Oh, getting back together

You go talk to your friends talk
To my friends talk to me
But we are never ever ever ever getting back together


PS: I have learnt from my mistakes of saying break up and divorce in spur of anger. So my current boyfriend also knows that I won't tolerate such crap ever again. Lesson learnt!

Self Explanatory Post

He may not be as handsome as you.
He may not be as well-educated as you.
He may not be earning the same salary range as you.
He may not be have the same family background as you.

But he has a better heart, character, loves me more and treats me better than you.
Period.