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Just the blunt and honest me. Just someone who needs to air her inner most feelings and thoughts. Just a female who suffers from a crazy life journey, with lots of ups and down in her life. Just another moronic human being who wishes for peace and serenity in life one day.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

The Child's Eye



Rating: 3/5
Lame show, with a horrible ending.

Boring Life

Life nowadays = boring = mundane

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Freddy Is Back


Finally caught 'Nightmare On Elm Street' on DVD. Watched with hubby. Won't say it was a fantastic show but I would dare say I satisfied my curiousity of who Freddy was and how come he is so disfigured as well as what was with the bladed fingers... Don't like the ending of the show though.
Now can't wait to watch 'Child's Eye' soon, either in the movies or on DVD...

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

PCOS Haunts Me

Went to see my gynae for routine Pap Smear, Blood Tests and Ultrasound. Have missed these check-up for the past 2 years due to busy with stuff and lazy to make appointments.
Anyways, the good news is that my blood tests and Pap Smears are normal. HOWEVER, my ultrasound report is not so good, it shows that I have more than 12 cyst in my right ovary, which means my PCOS has not improved and has gotten worst. No wonder I missed my period for 4mths! That also explains the constant nagging pain I have been experiencing on & off... :( How I wish I could be like any normal females free from this PCOS thing. I won't mind having regular menses and lead a normal life using pads + tampons monthly...
Told my hubby and his only reply was 'What to do? It ain't your fault'. Not sure I am supposed to be relieved by this reply or should I be upset by such unfeeling reply from him?
Maybe I am just not blessed to concieve and lead a normal life like a female should...

Friday, October 1, 2010

What If??? Could It Be???

Few questions lingering on my mind nowadays:
1) My granny has just celebrated her 83th birthday and I start to painfully wonder how I would cope if I hear the news of her death one day.
2) Been having weird dreams of my own death (like the way I would die) recently and even dreaming that I was in heaven after death.
3) Missed my period for nearly 4mths now, my PCOS is acting up again... Risk of endometrial cancer for me. (Will have my check-up in 2 weeks time with my gynae...)
4) Hubby has been acting weirdly (in good and bad ways) towards me and I am more suspicious that he maybe having an affair out there... If there really is infidelity present, how am I supposed to cope or how would/should I respond? I just hope it is just me and my over-sensitive character acting up again.
5) Been told that I may not need 2 years to be promoted and may be promoted sooner depending on my ADN's approval.